I should be walking around the streets of orchard at this hour but unfortuanately i am blogging right now.sigh.sorry girls,i ruined the outing.i woke up with a swollen eyes,it was extremely painful.i thought i could endure the pain and maybe just wear a sunglass out but if i just wear a sunglass then what about my contact lens?i cant possibly wear it as well as my eye is painful enough.i dont want to hit the lamppost while walking and i dont want people to get infected too.my dad said is infectious.sigh,i really hope by tommorow it can heal if not i cant attend my class bbq.god,bless me!luckily i had my computer for company,the whole day i was busy watching "devil beside you" by yang cheng ling.so nice!!!!she is so cute and sweet,really envy her angelic looks.haha.the storyline was not boring at all,i enjoyed almost every episode.the male lead is very suave too..ohhhh...i shall end here,i want to watch finish by today..take care..(:
posted @ 5:58 PM
yesterday i was friendsick,people is either homesick or lovesick but im just friendsick.i missed my secondary classmates badly especially angel.i just feel so uneasy and lonely without her,her voice just seems to dissapear for century.for years,i had been listening to the husky voice of her whines,jokes and laughter,now..everything seems so quiet.i guess im too dependent on her companionship.however after having a good laugh with her and za over the phone,i felt much better.you know i realised that everyone share a different bonds with their friends.sometimes when i heard a mutual friend joking with her own group of friends,they can even laugh till their heads roll but to me i find it meaningless and NOT FUNNY at all!!!however when my own friends started crapping and saying REALLY meaningless jokes too,they are AMUSING to me!haha.so you see,not all friends can share that same kind of bond with you so be thankful that at least you have one that can crack you up despite he/her jokes really make no sense.ya,im refering to ah mui.im still laughing over what she had said last night to za,what 255 malay gang.haha.the friends in poly seems weird to me.in fact now i really loathe those convent school girls,they are simply fu*king stuck up.maybe because most of them are flithy rich.actually its really easy to identify them,their behaviour reveals it all.i still prefer to mingle with those chinese-speaking or should i just name them cheena people,haha.they sounds more humble and feel no threat being with them.maybe its just an assumption but i somehow feel more comfortable.oh,no wonder im not close with my church friends...tommorow im meeting some of them for lunch in school,well,hope to know them better.i,myself got to try to smile more too and try to socialize around,being unfriendly wont bring me anywhere.looking forward to the weekends now...got to wash my face,bye for now.*i really miss you guys!!!!
posted @ 10:33 PM
i was late for my first lesson yesterday.lucky one of my classmate was late too,if not i will start to panic and everything will start to turn bonkers.anyway my first lecture was plain boring!!!worst thing,i dont understand a damm shit.i wonder if i had choosen the right course,sigh...you have to know what are the skills of management,the enviroment blah blah blah.the moment i reached home,i took 3 hours to understand everything.i think i need to study really hard,my future depends on my results.i miss secondary school life,the lifestyle and everything!!!arghhh...can i go back to then?feel like slapping myself,why do i like to look back to the past....jose stop whining like an old grandma already..anyway today i went to dental.guess why i went there?im doing braces!!!haha.many must be surprised.actually i had been dissatisfied with my teeth for quite a long time and didnt thought of doing braces but i want to have a nicer smile so i went.hehe.in my whole life,i never thought that i would need such braces but as i grow older,everything starts changing even the teeth.today i done the xray and mould.wahh,i need to extract 4 teeths too.im so scared!!!wish everything goes well for me...got to sleep..good night!!!
posted @ 11:44 PM
today is another boring sunday.didnt turn up for church again.i really don't have much interest for choir anymore.can someone really pull me back to church??in the afternoon i cooked for my dad and i lunch.i felt really bad inside for treating him that way.actually im really a very soft-hearted person,the moment my dad starts defending his wrongness,everything that he said seems that i had malign him and my eyes will start tearing.however it doesnt mean i had forgot about what he had done,i just dont wish that the father-daughter relationship to deterioate just like that.enough of these.anyway i have a sudden urge of making chocalate cookies but i wonder who to make for.im on a diet so i cant eat.hmm..maybe for my friends?i shall consider it.i think some guys in wlny are really desperate to know girls.i had this guy that kept msging me non stop and gave me all his contacts.i think he needs some slaps,stop flooding my inbox!!actually come to think about it,i wonder why did i enter this wlny when i dont even reply their msgs.i used to reply to everyone that sent me a msg but now it seems that i have a phobia.seriously,i only replied twice or thrice ever since i sign up for this thingy.i dont seem to trust guys on the net.sigh...im beginning to miss that someone again.whenever anyone mention about him,i start having all sorts of mixed feelings.anyway i really wonder how is he doing now,how his life has been..i reckon that he must be having an enjoyable time.sometimes i do regret for my rash action but i guess it's all over,it's really time to move on and lead with my own life.i still have a long road ahead of me so why must i let someone affected me so much.besides,its part and parcel of life.i guess there are still plenty of things for me to experience especially the ugly side of the world.it's time for bed,good night everyone!
posted @ 12:05 AM
Im so happy today!!!I just bought the slippers that i had been eyeing since last week.how i wish i had lots of money then i can buy the better brand one which costed 99bucks but come think about it,it is ridiculous la.anyway im contented with my 30bucks one.keke.today went out with bran and qingyuan to check out the prices of our bbq for next week.bbq sounds so nice but you know what,it's so fattening la.hotdog,chicken wings..wahhh sounds yum yum but i cant take any of it.orhhh..so pathetic right?bran is even making chocalate fondue for us!!!CHOCALATE FONDUE YOU KNOW??its chocalate fondue!!!my favourite!!!!both of them cant stand me because i kept pointing out whats fat whats healthy.i even requested that our drinks to be fruits juice.*eye rolled*maybe i should really be a nutritionist.i hate to be so health consious la but i got no choice.*pouted*im so fat!!!i ate ice cream for my dinner today.haha but waittt..i know you all might be thinking im contradicting myself.but i ate low fat ice cream,you know mr bean soya icecream.wahh super nice la!!then when i went to harbour front the new zealand icecream,i met my ex boss.she treated us to her icecream.abit shocking men because she seems to be quite stingy.actually i dont want to eat but she keep forcing me,force ar...so i take the low fat one again loh.super yummy also la.she wanted to give me 2 scoopes but i stopped her.omg,why am i so nice??hahaha..btw i love my school timetable,so flexible..so sian now,should have follow karen for clubbing.she seems unright,will she be ok?i hope so...sigh go sleep better...byebye..
posted @ 11:37 PM
hello!!!yesterday went for my orientation.it was kinda fun la but abit boring still.i like my school song,feel so united.haha.i met my classmates already.sigh,all like cannot seems to click except one girl.she seems to be the only one that have the same interest as me..hai yo dont know how.never mind i must be independent!!!there are many classes of my courses but sad to say our course is really bad at cheerleading.courses like HTM and BIT all seems to be really enthusiastic.the student leaders tried all ways to make us cheer but everyone just stoned.really funny.my courses got quite a handful of trendy girls..hmm tp tp..school starting on monday already,hope i get along well with my classmates.i cant wait for my secondary class gathering!!!so excited!!!i want to see all my friends...i really misses them so much,though i just met them a few days ago but im beginning to miss them.sigh,5 years together then now just seperated like that,so sad you know??:((type till here,yawning already.
posted @ 1:22 PM
omg omg omg!!!few more hours to orientation.so scary ar!!!!i really prayed that tommorow will be fun and the friends will be amicable..please please.anyway i rebonded my hair today!!haha say goodbye to those bad hair days..now my hair is silky and smooth.feel so light now as well,previously my hair was damm heavy and dried.actually i dont want to rebond but i dont wish to perm either so i got no choice.to end my frizzy hair,rebond is the only solution.people,wish me luck for tommorow.miss u guys...
posted @ 11:19 PM
Today is such a tiring day.i woke up early to work.my pri sch fren recommended me.i needed the money badly so i had no choice but to go.packed the dvd until my skin peeled off.i got my third pay already,so happy!!im so mad about my hair now.suddenly become so frizzy and dry.i think i must pay the salon a visit tommorow.i almost wanted to cancel my tution today because im really worn out but the thought of the money i unwillingly dragged myself to go.however strangely,i enjoyed today lesson.haha because my student actually know how to do all the maths questions in the assessment book.it just make my day though im pathetically exhuasted the whole day.im really so tired that i slept in the taxi while i was on the way home that even the taxi driver had to call me several times before i can open my eyes.haha.orientation is coming and im excited yet afraid.well,guess i had written enough.sleep tight!:)
posted @ 10:12 PM
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happy easter day!Slept really well last night,finally i replenished my lost hours of sleep.i even dreamt of chocalates..haha.yesterday went sentosa with the ladies.the sun was basking hot.it was pretty crowded as well.we walked past the beach and saw many babes and hunks.some of their bodies were whoooo..haha.its been so long since i went there.i bumped into my aunt and her family,such a coincidental thing.we went to sit the chairlift,quite exciting up there.but the dumb me dropped my slipper while sitting.lucky the staffs were kind enough to allow us to sit another trip back to retrieve my slipper.the gals should thanks me because i "offer" them a free trip.haha.while sitting high up in the air,there was this photo shot.bloody hell,the photo cost 10bucks each but im smart enough to tell the guy there to secretly print 4 for us and we just paid 5bucks.amazingly he agreed.haha,met a great deal.after a hot pespiring day,we headed straight to Bugis to look for syaza's schoolbag.tired were we,we took a taxi home and bran paid 10bucks for us.thanks!!haha.wondering to go church this evening,its easter day.just feel so restless today,really need someone to drag me to go.im off...bye!
posted @ 12:59 PM
its raining cats and dogs today.i realised that every good friday,it is always pouring heavily.from what i think,i came to a conclusion that maybe "above" are crying for Jesus.today i went for mass and the station of the cross.this year we were not allowed to kiss Jesus's feet because of some hand and mouth dieseases so we only allowed to bow and kneel before him.the church was really packed and i got no chance to sit.after that i went to meet Karen.at first we sat at mac cafe for a chat.she had resign from her current job and now taking a break before she find a new one.i wondered if she had made the right choice,prayed that she did.then we went to Balcony at Herren for a drink.she told me not to take alcohol as today is the death of chirst and we got to respect it so i just drank juices.i thought inside was a "whao" thing but in fact i think its is pretty normal,i just love the seats and the juccuzi.but i dont really like the view,seeing cars and a busy street isnt a fantastic view.then we headed now to Scarlet hotel for our dinner.it was really a great experience eating there.the ambience and atmosphere are simply ravishing.the service is number1 and their furniture and stuffs are all so pretty.though it is just a small hotel but their bars and restuarant are really nice.first,we went to 'Desire',the restaurant.i ordered prawn salad followed by salmon.the food is fabulous.they even gave special name to their dishes,my main course which is the salmon is called 'spice me up',so unique huh?but guess the bill?it costed 129 for everything.it was a luxurious meal.i really enjoyed it.after our meal we went up to'Breeze' to have our drink.the view was nice over there,breeze as is was named,it was windy and cooling.really a great place for marriage proposals and birthday surprises.haha.i had my full today and tomorrow will be back to my vegetables and fruits diet.gonna clean off my make up now,ciao!!!
posted @ 10:32 PM
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today met up with ah mui to meet up for dinner.we went marina square to had our sumptous dinner.we went to Lerk thai.it tasted really yummy.i know im not suppose to eat but i avoid the rice.haha.it costed so expensive..we were shocked when we paid the bill.never mind la,once in a blue moon.i love the green curry a lot!!hehe..then we just walked around there,so big man!!!a new place to shop.i also saw an aunty promoter selling m&n chocs whom i used to work with at the same place.she is really very hardworking,always see her so busy.should follow her.haha.then after our meal,we sat at the fountain there and took so many photos.i dont know why i always enjoy going out with ah mui,we just never seems to run out of topic to talk.cant wait for our saturday trip now..im getting all so excited already...
posted @ 12:34 AM
im back in shape again.that day must be screw loose,trying to drown myself into misery again.however,im still giving my dad a cold shoulder.in fact deep down,i didnt feel good.i know my dad tried ways to humour me but of course to no avail.i did that isnt because im trying to show off my temper but i just want him to feel the pain of abandoning someone who loved you so much.everyone is dissapointed with him,even my godma whom respected him since young.he is my nice daddy but on the whole i doubt so.another thing that fidget my little heart was that little precious gift sent by God.just received the news 2 days ago.i was full of anticipation for the arrival of that little one but sadly,he/she is now gone forever.i prayed that he/she will find a new life soon.tomorrow is Good Friday and im attending mass.its gonna be another sad service.in fact i dread Good friday because the mass is always very solemn and tears always welled up my eyes.no organist,no music...everyone just stand and kneel,stand and kneel.got to fast tomorrow as well.need to take my bath now,will be back soon..
posted @ 3:39 PM
Feeling damm down now.really cant figure out whats wrong with me.i just seems to find fault in everything i do.i really feel like slapping myself,today i ate the things that im not supposed to eat.i really felt so guilty that i tried to purge out everything that i ate.i know its dangerous but i just dont know why i did that...seeing my dad leaving the house makes me feel funny,i just felt so lonely in the house all alone.i know he is meeting his lover.everytime i think that my mum is walking alone outside while my dad is enjoying his time with another person,i felt really angry and remorseful.it has been months that i did not felt this way but today i just flare up out of sudden.i just feel that no one bother me at all especially at home.i hate to stay at home alone now...really hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
posted @ 9:35 PM
haha.i guess singapore is really aint big.i got friends that went to orientation today saying that they met my friends whom they dont know.funny thing was my friend got to know my church friend and my church friend was saying that im a very quiet girl in church.make me laugh la because im not,haha and of course my friend was shocked because im the not exactly the quiet gal in school.but its true la,in church i potrayed a different personality.hehe perhaps i cant seems to find a common topic to chat with them except a few people like ai ren..haha.today went out with davin to catch a movie.we watched ice age2.it was really hilarious and the characters are really cute.actually i didnt like the first season of ice age,i remembered crystal and i just chatted through the whole movie.haha and he taught me how to play pool.i reallly sucks at it la.the stick or whatever it is called is really damm heavy.carry until my arm ached.haha.but i will try to brush up in pool and win this ah za.everytime play with her,she always win.anyway,wanna thanks him for the treat and his company.hehe.so sleepy le...shall not go on any further..nights everyone!!
posted @ 11:16 PM
Today is finally my last day of work..im so happy!!!:D however today when i was about to go home,i met a psycho!!!it freaked me out.yesterday i gave a man around his thirties to try my ice cream and after that he stayed at my counter there for very long trying to pick up a conversation with me but i managed to shake him off by approaching other customers and eventually he walked away.so after work i went to walk around the supermarket to buy some stuffs then i bumped into him.he asked me if i was late for work in the afternoon because he came to look for me.i was flabbergasted,i mean look for me for what sia??.after that he just followed me where ever i went.then he asked me if beautiful girls are all materialistic.what stupid thing to ask.i thought maybe i paid my stuffs,he will stop following me but he actually waited for me outside.oh gosh!!!my heart was thumping like hell and i didnt know what to do.then of course my only resort was to run.thanks god,i got rid of him.girls should really be careful and i think giving numbers to a stranger is very dangerous.well,i hope i wont encounter such things again.phew!!!hmm..im pretty sad that i cant attend church today.today is palm sunday and i didnt get the leaf.if you are wondering what palm sunday is about,it is actually an occasion where we welcome Jesus back home by lifting a palm leaf up from....hmm cant remember leh,should be the 40days at some place.errr..hope im right.i dont read the bible so im handicap to the knowledge of christianality.but i will read it one day,one fine day!!!haha.i think in my whole life,i only read up till genesis,in other words the story of adam and eve.thats my favourite k?hahaha.so nice.tommorow my friends are all having their orientation already except the poor me.i wonder why my school takes so long to start.anyway im looking forward to sentosa next sat with my clique.yippeee!!!hehe..shall end here..zai jian!!!
posted @ 1:18 PM
my stomach hurts badly.im supposed to exercise right now but i end up sitting infront of the computer typing.really suffering from a bad cramp now.no wonder i had been craving for food these few days.tonight i promise to come home and exercise if not im the fattest girl in the whole universe.yesterday work was quite fun because i chatted with many children.they kept coming to me for extra scoope of icecream.haha.ai yo i wanna tou chi also cannot.so scared people see.i wanna rest on the bed already...update again soon...
posted @ 10:30 AM
I think im suffering from insomia,didnt catch a wink last night again.i only managed to sleep at 7a.m in the morning.the whole night,i just read magazines and surf the net.being an owl isnt a good feeling.after blogging,i must head to bed right away.i went for the training again and i will be promoting haggen dazs icecream.i tried it and it tasted superb.feel like taking the sample home.haha but i cant because it will tempt me and destroy my diet plan.NONO!!im so happy,i today finally get to eat the sesame paste at chinatown.i am so in love with that desert that im thinking of it right now.i feel like killing myself,i told myself not to buy anymore things but i did.my eyes are really spoilt.im kinda pissed off with one auntie.she super copycat la!!!when i tried on the clothes that i choose and showed it to my mum,that auntie saw it and ask the salesgirl to let her try exactly the same one as mine.my mum and i nearly wanna peng,she actually wanna try the mini skirt that i was wearing.funny thing is when she wore it, she came out and asked me why she wear like so weird while i wear so nice.come on,mini skirts are not for you la aunty.im not being mean but she should dress according to her age.worst still,when i changed back to my own clothes,she asked me where i bought my clothes.wah!!!can die,really can die.my mum and i quickly paid for the clothes and went off.actually i really loathe copycats,if its strangers i dont mind but i hate those friends that saw what you were using,they also went to buy exactly the same thing.everyone wanna be unique!i still remember last time i got one friend,she kept buying the same things as me.she can even remembered what necklace i wore during when and which clothes i matched with.so irritating.im sure girls will understand my position better.haha.ok i shall stop my ranting.good night!!!
posted @ 10:04 PM
Im so dead beat right now.i only slept for 1 hour this morning.for the whole night,i just cant get to sleep.i think i really cant consume any drinks that contain caffeine.as i was getting really bored,davin called me and chatted with me just to keep me company.haha.i think we chatted about aproximately 6hours like that.it was so long but his grandfather stories are kinda interesting to listen,ah pek what thats why so many stories to tell.haha.he teaches me way to exercise too.he very pro in all these things la.really wanna thanks him for always being there when i need somebody.after the talk,i quickly get ready to meet ah tal.we went to bugis again and i bought all the things that i want already,felt so satisfied with my shopping trip today.i dont want to shop anymore,enough is enough.after that met ah juan to buy the bag together then we took a train home.i was so exhausted that i lie on ah juan comfortable shoulder and slept my way through the journey home.after that i went to give my very first tution to a primary1 child.i teach basically everything.pri1 is like so easy la.i think i must learn to be patience already,i teach him until i abit sian because i seems to test him 10 times but he still cannot get it into his brain.jose ar jose,must be patience k and dont lose your temper.head is spinning right now,i think i realy lackof sufficient rest.hmm..i wonder if a person just smile unknowingly,it means that they are in love?oh cut the crap la,GOOD NIGHT!!!
posted @ 10:35 PM
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My foot hurts!!!today i went to bugis to walk.the clothes there are super cheap,i bargain until so shiok.i bought 2 things today only because my pay have not come.never mind,i shall resume my retail therapy tommorow.S-H-O-P-P-I-N-G here i comee...!!!i think i love bugis now,so big and many things to walk.i saw a bag i love so much today.tommorow gonna get it.ah juan also buying.hehe.i realised i like pink and gold stuffs a lot.most of my things are in these 2 colours now.i wanna buy some green,blue or yellow shirts.actually im into pastel colours now as well.feel like summer time.haha.today went to zara as well,only saw a dress that its nice,the rest are so boring.this ah mui abit gila sia,call us go out tommorow then ownself back out.know the reason why she decided not to go?because of her damm hair.she said she looked like a china doll now and she doesnt want to face the crowd.haha..she ar..really cartoon la.but cutting frindge really damm scary,i still remember last time whenever my cousin wanna cut,i will keep praying in my heart that it will look nice.hairstyles really can change the way you look.anyway she is now happily discovering her new lappy.school starting soon...scary!!!!im so afraid that our different timeslots may clash then i got less chance to meet ah mui and the rest.why why why?why are we in different schools??
well..god bless everyone..nite!
posted @ 10:49 PM
IT'S APRIL!!!time flies.yesterday was april fool day and guess what the first thing that woke me up was syaza's lame sms.she said that she met with a car accident,i knew it was a prank.i presume everyone met a mishap on april fools day huh?haha.stupid davin also fooled me.initially i was so sure that his words were totally unbelivable but after his "brother" said that he really went into the hospital,i was so worried that i even called him.he can still pretend that the nurse was speaking to him.oh dear,why am i so naive to believe it.josephine is a smart girl k.well,its april fool day afterall and he really cracked me up a little.haha but he owe me a favour now and im gonna make good use of it..:P today ah cheong came to rivervale mall and he bought me a bar of chocalate.im so happy!!hehe,he even said that he could see that i had lose some weight.that shows that my effort was not in vain.it wasnt easy trying to shed weight,i even felt giddy and neusous because of not eating the right way.im not going to give up!!!josephine aja aja!!!hehe..today went to choir too and able to sing with ai ren made me feel happy.i missed her so much la.hope to go out with her soon.sigh,we had not been going to practices for easter and stuffs like that.audrey had also gone missing in action,that miss W-H-Y...go poly already become so busy.ai ya stop saying people will you,skali you also.k shut up..go and sleep now!!!
posted @ 10:35 PM