Feeling damm down now.really cant figure out whats wrong with me.i just seems to find fault in everything i do.i really feel like slapping myself,today i ate the things that im not supposed to eat.i really felt so guilty that i tried to purge out everything that i ate.i know its dangerous but i just dont know why i did that...seeing my dad leaving the house makes me feel funny,i just felt so lonely in the house all alone.i know he is meeting his lover.everytime i think that my mum is walking alone outside while my dad is enjoying his time with another person,i felt really angry and remorseful.it has been months that i did not felt this way but today i just flare up out of sudden.i just feel that no one bother me at all especially at home.i hate to stay at home alone now...really hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
posted @ 9:35 PM