today is another boring sunday.didnt turn up for church again.i really don't have much interest for choir anymore.can someone really pull me back to church??in the afternoon i cooked for my dad and i lunch.i felt really bad inside for treating him that way.actually im really a very soft-hearted person,the moment my dad starts defending his wrongness,everything that he said seems that i had malign him and my eyes will start tearing.however it doesnt mean i had forgot about what he had done,i just dont wish that the father-daughter relationship to deterioate just like that.enough of these.anyway i have a sudden urge of making chocalate cookies but i wonder who to make for.im on a diet so i cant eat.hmm..maybe for my friends?i shall consider it.i think some guys in wlny are really desperate to know girls.i had this guy that kept msging me non stop and gave me all his contacts.i think he needs some slaps,stop flooding my inbox!!actually come to think about it,i wonder why did i enter this wlny when i dont even reply their msgs.i used to reply to everyone that sent me a msg but now it seems that i have a phobia.seriously,i only replied twice or thrice ever since i sign up for this thingy.i dont seem to trust guys on the net.sigh...im beginning to miss that someone again.whenever anyone mention about him,i start having all sorts of mixed feelings.anyway i really wonder how is he doing now,how his life has been..i reckon that he must be having an enjoyable time.sometimes i do regret for my rash action but i guess it's all over,it's really time to move on and lead with my own life.i still have a long road ahead of me so why must i let someone affected me so much.besides,its part and parcel of life.i guess there are still plenty of things for me to experience especially the ugly side of the world.it's time for bed,good night everyone!
posted @ 12:05 AM