yesterday i was friendsick,people is either homesick or lovesick but im just friendsick.i missed my secondary classmates badly especially angel.i just feel so uneasy and lonely without her,her voice just seems to dissapear for century.for years,i had been listening to the husky voice of her whines,jokes and laughter,now..everything seems so quiet.i guess im too dependent on her companionship.however after having a good laugh with her and za over the phone,i felt much better.you know i realised that everyone share a different bonds with their friends.sometimes when i heard a mutual friend joking with her own group of friends,they can even laugh till their heads roll but to me i find it meaningless and NOT FUNNY at all!!!however when my own friends started crapping and saying REALLY meaningless jokes too,they are AMUSING to me!haha.so you see,not all friends can share that same kind of bond with you so be thankful that at least you have one that can crack you up despite he/her jokes really make no sense.ya,im refering to ah mui.im still laughing over what she had said last night to za,what 255 malay gang.haha.the friends in poly seems weird to me.in fact now i really loathe those convent school girls,they are simply fu*king stuck up.maybe because most of them are flithy rich.actually its really easy to identify them,their behaviour reveals it all.i still prefer to mingle with those chinese-speaking or should i just name them cheena people,haha.they sounds more humble and feel no threat being with them.maybe its just an assumption but i somehow feel more comfortable.oh,no wonder im not close with my church friends...tommorow im meeting some of them for lunch in school,well,hope to know them better.i,myself got to try to smile more too and try to socialize around,being unfriendly wont bring me anywhere.looking forward to the weekends now...got to wash my face,bye for now.*i really miss you guys!!!!
posted @ 10:33 PM