A few hours ago,i felt extremely miserable that i broke down and cried infront of my mum.I guess she really understands my plight.im really fortunate to have my mum,she was so worried of the patches on my body that she kept applying the lotion on my body and remind me million of times to eat my medicine.she told me it was dangerous,if it spreads around the whole body,i would die.at that point,i really hope it will just spread and all my problems will gone.having less a josephine on this planet wont make a difference.I just dont get it,i eat lots of fruits and vegetables,do regular exercise but why did i have to suffer all these stupid things.i dont want to be a weak person,i want to be a strong josephine!!!Anyway im glad i have great pals that are really concerned for me,thank you so much.By the way,today i went to school for CNN day,it is kind of like a carnival.our class stall is bloody pathetic,it is not earning at all.anyway i just enjoyed walking around the whole school,felt like shopping.Bought a gold cloth belt which costed for only 5 bucks.damm happy!then after school headed straight to PS for my da vinci code.it was kinda boring at the beginning but when it reached the climax,it was nice.however,im still blur about what was happening.i must buy the book and read.i really wonder if Jesus really did married mary magdelene,though the story is fiction-based,it makes me doubt about my faith with God now.Actually i dont understand why we have catholics,pagan,protestants,orthodox and blah blah blah...arnt we all under christianality??isnt it ridiculous??it just cause unnecessary hatred on one another.and what the f*cking hell those people that wants to break the bible code and stuffs like that,why man would always like to challenge God.God gave man the wisdom and yet they misused it.wheather when the messiah will arrive again is all depend on God's will,the time will come naturally.arghh..my forehead is like a 100degree celcius oven now..really need to get back to bed and rest my bloody weak body.ciaos!
posted @ 11:36 PM