It's Sunday!A week more and its my birthday.18th bday!Time passes so fast,last year at this point of time,im just starting to mug for my olevel.18th sounds so nice,so young,so carefree.Youth isnt forever so i must make sure i enjoy my teenage life to the fullest.I hope next week will be an enjoyable time for me.Also,i hope it can make up to the past lousy and miserable months i had since this year started.By the way, i worked yesterday and it wasnt as stressful as i thought.Instead i think i quite like working in the roadshow because time passes very quickly and you get to meet a lot of people.Both bad and good.If there is no one to talk to,i can just look at shoppers walking by and see how they dress.haha.And you might meet other job opportunities as well,i mean strangers may have a liking for you and ask for your number to work for them.However today i didnt work coz i need to finish up my damm project and study for my test tml.Excel is so damm complicating la,hating it.Ai ya i just seems to hate all the modules la.Okay time for hair mask!ciao!WO YAO QIAN!!!!Next week is time for some retail therapy..woooo!!!~~
posted @ 9:08 PM
HELP!!!!I dont have the time to do econs project.I should not have agree to work tomorrow.Tomorrow is Izyan's birthday party and i got to miss it.I miss the class gathering that time,now i gonna miss another one.sigh!Im so afraid about tml too,im afraid i dont know how to promote the phone.The pay is good but i just feel stress now.Anyway,today we all went to buy for izyan's present.I choose a Pierce Cardin wallet for her,hopefully she will like it.I really feel like going to her party but but but...dont say already,full of regrets now.Yesterday after school,i went to meet Clive for a movie.Its been so long since i saw him.It was really nice catching up with him.Hehe.Too bad i had tuition so i cant spend more time with him.haizz...Tonight is a "CHIONG" night!Not clubbing but RUSHING THRU PROJECT!!!!arghhh...si bei sian now..shall go sleep a few hours now before i start my project.sob sob,pathetic josephine..:`(
posted @ 7:50 PM
Im sorry,im wrong.I went to church to return the tickets to aunt pat.While waiting for mass to end,i was suddenly guilt-striken.It was so bad that my tears just flow down my cheeks.Just behind the door of the church,i saw all sorts of people,children,adults,old people and even handicapped praying and singing the word of God.While a healthy young girl like me skipped every mass and choir practices just because she was lazy and dreadful.I simply just pushed all the blames to God for everything.I blamed him for not helping me during my darkest period of my life,i hated him for not answering my prayers.I blamed him so much that i stopped all my daily night prayers.I dont even want to look at the altar at my home.And just when my life took a peak,i totally just put God aside and i even didnt bother to thank him.Why didnt i thought of all the happiest moments in my life?why didnt i thought of who gave me such moments?Im just a selfish,ignorance girl!After mass,i met aunt pat and desiree.At first i was afraid that aunt pat will reprimand me for missing the choir practices but instead she smiled and ask me how am i.I was surprised.She even said she understand that i needed to work and she missed my presence.Then,i cried again and told her how angry i was towards God.She then enlightened me with her own experiences and that somehow woke me up.
Now,i just want to get back to church and retrive my lost faith back.Also, i want to go to confession and pray for his forgiveness.God,im deeply sorry...
posted @ 10:11 PM
i HATE this picture!i hate vulture.i hate their eye expression..how can they eat human beings...this picture is f*cking depressing...
Oh mine,these 2 pictures just triggered my tear glands.Please please,dont waste anymore food and water.Look at these children,they are lefted with just skin and bones.Im feeling so sad for them now...sigh...
posted @ 3:57 PM
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My 2 pretty best friends.I just dont understand why 2 of them are just so beautiful...haha...
posted @ 8:11 PM
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so many things to study!!!!
Im so happy today!I finally get to see my dearest ah tal.It was so unexpected.haha.Actually im supposed to study at home but i was kinda bored so i called ah mui out and she suggested to call crystal and syaza too.However,ah za could not make it at the last minute and im so dissapointed.Then we headed down to cp starbucks and studied there.Ah tal helped me with accounting,thanks gal!hehe.Oh ya,I called Mr Wu to meet us and coincidentally he was at starbucks too.So he treated us to the drinks.haha.Mr wu is my secondary school teacher as well as my uncle.The world is so small huh?hehe.It was so nice meeting him.:D After that we accompanied ah mui to trim her eyebrowns but in the end ah tal and i trimmed too.At first we didnt thought of trimming but that beautician kept going on and said ah tal and mine should trim too.She said ah tal one like la pi xiao xin,we laughed till our head rolled.And she said mine was uneven.She wanted to charge me 5bucks but i kept saying i no money and in the end she charged me for only 2 dollars.I think im really good at bargaining.haha!Im glad to meet them today.hehe.I love my babies Glitz...ok i shall end here,its time to do my project.I love you guys...lots of hugs and kisses..muacks...
posted @ 6:48 PM
STRESS, STRESS ,STRESS!That's what im feeling now.Im afraid i wont do well in my test and im also afraid about the POM powerpoint.I suddenly feel that im not up to this course.I dread all the modules im having now!Am i on the right path towards my future?i really dont know what i want and what i like!It's driving me nuts!!!Sigh....I just feel like having a break.By the way,come to think about it,it has been so long since i met up with crystal and syaza.I saw ah tal last monday in Pizza Hut and i felt so funny.It seems like in the past we are always going out together bumping into either her friends or my friends but now its like...hmm i really dont know how to describe.I just feel that it has not been a year but yet we seems so distant.We both seems reluctant to call one another,i guess both of us think that the other party is busy thats why we dont dare to call each other.I really hope our friendship will be stronger like it used to be.I miss her very much...i hope to see her on my birthday and of course the rest of my classmates..i really wish that my birthday will come as soon as possible...
posted @ 11:05 PM
Today i woke up early to do some exercise.I did 150 sit-ups today!!!whaoo so proud of myself!!*a pat on my back.keke.actually i wanna try 500 sit-ups as what guo an had said last night.But cannot make it la,i do 50 already i wanna peng liao!too fat!haha.tml i aim to do 200!!!jia you ar!oh yesh,today im like a santa claus,gave presents to juan and ting.so many ppl bday this month,can die!!accounting test is coming and im so scared...bcoz i dunnoe anything abt it!jia lak...sigh..can someone help me please?!haha today in tutorial damm funny la,ting and i were afraid to sit beside someone and we quickly sat together so that the person wont had a chance to sit with us.wahh,she is super dupee irritating.i cant tk it anymore!please god,dont allow us to do projects together.2 is more then enough!i could no longer bear it anymore.Actually i thought of skipping econs and meet mui straight away but i kept telling myself"jose must go,must go,dont be lazy!!" haha and luckily i did.after that went to look for her and my mum then went home.sian ar..later got project to do..i gonna sleep soon so tml i have the energy to focus on my project!!!Good night my dear friends...josephine misses u all!!
posted @ 10:13 PM
It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song
Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Because I liked the view
When there was me and you
I can't believe that I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you
someone read my blog and sent me this song because he said the lyric is like my story.hmm..hear already memories flashed back again and eyes became watery...BUT i will not let myself fall again!!!i must be a strong and happy Josephine!!!!:D
posted @ 12:08 AM
I dont understand why am i always so f*king damm tired???it's like only 6 hours in school but whenever i get home,i can just immediately shut off within a minute.Today is ting's birthday and she seems so happy.haha.Everyone in class all teased her and Jeremy.haha aunty and uncle,really damm funny!!Im feeling so guilty now because i still have not buy her a gift.Tommorow im heading now to Bugis to get it for her and also im getting a new bag!hehe.Today i went for the sony ericssion interview and i got the job!!!wooo guess hw much they pay us an hour?8BUCKS!!its freaking a lot la!!!But im kinda worry now because im not good at hp stuffs and now i have to promote it.Its like we got to memorise the different kind of functions in all phones.Its not 3 or 4 phones but 10 over phones.Oh dear!But for the sake of that money,im willing to memorise everything!Oh yes,my birthday is round the corner and im looking forward to it.remember ar its 6AUGUST!!!hehe.i think i gonna get a new clothes for my bday.hmm but it seems like i always get new clothes every month so no difference huh?haha whatever!!!I hope all my friends will turn up.my glitz and dem!!haa..its time for TV!!!...Bubbye...
posted @ 8:59 PM
the bday gal making a wish...dont be greedy ar..wish 1 thing can already.haha
sweetest girls in town...hahaha...
see the nice cake..haha they kept passing their pasta to me but i kept telling ting im only waiting to eat the cake...hehe
trying to create a stupid dumbo face...
the foursome..izyan,nadia,me and wan ting!!!!
Two gals in braces!!haha...
It's me with the sweet pretty birthday girl!!!~
I had a great day out with my poly friends.We went out together because we wanted to give Ting a birthday surprise.So after tutorial,we quickly headed to cathay to buy the movie tix but instead we watched at PS because the time at cathay was too late for Nadia.The new cathay cinema looks nice.I must watch it there one fine day!haa.then Izyan and i bluff ting that we need to get something so that we can lure out to buy her a cake.after that we met at pizza hut and told the waiter to help us serve the cake after we had our meals.I think ting knew all about our plan la,we are so poor in lying.haha!!I really hope she likes the surprise we gave her.hehe..btw the brownie cake super nice lor!haha.Then after the meal we went to watch SUPERMAN RETURN!!!~~i love superman now!he is so suave!!Nice movie..hmm..i still have not got anything for her but im getting it soon once i get my pay.i need to get for izyan too coz her bday is next week!!!im broke le,all bday come at one shot.she is having a bday party next wk and im invited!!hehe happy happy!i love birthdays!ok i shall post some pictures here...
posted @ 10:18 PM
woo...100dollars is on the way into my bank.haa..yesterday and today i worked with my mummy and ah mui at town.Glad we all work in the same area.Just applied yogurt mask on my face and i think im heading to bed after that.I still have not done my econs research.Im really dead beat now and i think i will just wake up early tml to do.i cant stand already.I really hate that monthly thing!!!i felt like a glutton today,i ate so many bread today,all bcoz of that monthly thing.i dont know why i have such weird sympton,always craving for food.sigh...just got to bear with it for a few more days...Anyway i saw a Puma watch and i love it very very much.It is really damm nice,it is pink which is my fav colour and it has crystals on it!OMG!!!i think im gonna think of it for many days and nights..i want it!But it's so expensive,200plus..But i thought of getting the swatch watch that i like since last year because i want something more formal.now i just feel like getting both!!HOW???!!!ah jose ah jose...dont please dont!!!if you buy,u no need to eat for 1 month already..haha..i think im really a watch fanatic!hehe btw i like patronizing Missha now,the shop that sells the yogurt mask..bcoz there is one cute guy working there.haha..he is really damm cute!!my new eyecandy now!keke..alright i shall not waste anymore time,tml im going out with my belovesss gals!!!excited!okok gd nite for now! lots of love people...
PS.i hope i dream of the puma watch tonight..hmm...ZzZzZz...
posted @ 10:38 PM
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my beautiful nails!!!!i think i should really open a nail parlour..HAHAHA!!!
pretty izyan,she's one of my fav fren.is my LV bag nice?real one k!!!dun play play...
This is wanjun...she looks so cute with her hair tied up.we love teasing people...haha...
Izyan,shawna,i and wan jun... the four babes..haha
2 business women doing some "big" business!!haha,this is shawna and i la.i think she's one of the best looking gals in class.. behind is my teacher..haha like extra sia...jpg)
lastly it is my lovely Izyan and i again,she is so sweet until im getting diabetics..haa
ooo la la!~what an eventful day!Today i had a presentation on communication skills and we are all required to wear formal.I bought a G2000 skirt and it cost me a bomb,hmm actually it is not that exaggerating but it cost 41 even it is after a 40% discount.Formal wear are so expensive!bloody hell,my stupid lens just had to spoil on this day and i got to wear my spectacles.haha and i think i look abit toot.anyway im so happy to bump into ah juan on the bus,at least there's someone with me before the presentation,if not i will get so tense up.Guess what i had present today??hehe i presented on "nail care" and as a presentor of nailcare,my nails got to be nice so i actually bought little rhinestones for my nails.hehe and i simply love the colour on my nails.Actually i was not really nervous today,rather i was more excited.haa dont know why.anyway the response from my friends are good so i hope my marks will be equally good.by the way im kinda sad that i did not take photos with my wan ting and nadia becoz we are presenting on different day...hmm its ok,there is still another presentation coming up..hehe.oh ya i love my class now...hehe..
so after the presentation,i went to my childhood friend's house for lunch,her mum cooked my fav tom yum soup for me which i had requested.it has been so long since i ate tom yum,i missed it a whole lot!they also bought chocalates for me from England,super happy!!!Actually her mum is kind of like a mother to me,their family treated me really well.supposingly we had this lunch is because baybay wanted to eat together but she came home late so i didnt see her.never mind,it give us another reason to visit one another again.
then after lunch,i quickly rushed down to raffles place for the training.im promoting minutemaid drink!!!im so excited!!!not bcoz its minutemaid drink la,its bcoz my mummy and my bestie phua are all working at the same area with me!!!hehe..ah phua i love u!!!hahaha...after that i went shopping with ah phua at bugis.ohhh how i miss shopping with this lady.she is still the best shopping companion!i just love asking for her opinions and i always trust her taste.we bought a skirt for only 10bucks!lets shop again when we get our pay ya!!!hee...and thanks God we have ah cheong our "saviour",he fetched us home again.yippie!!i had a great day.. :D
posted @ 10:59 PM
LEO WOMAN
She will stand out of the crowd on the street. Leo woman normally tall or rather tall. You will hardly see a short thick woman. When she walks she walk like a queen, confident and does not look around, though as if there is no one around her. (Tall meh??im so short!!haha not true not true :P)
She will dress in her own style not according to fashion. She is confident of what she choose to wear. Do not buy cheap cloths where they sell in dozen for her as a gift, she will hate it. Also do not buy cloths that do not reflect her confident personality. She likes unique and strange cloths and accessories. Being different is what she loves. (true,in fact i kinda hate cheap cloths)
If you want to know her, take times and be patient because she is selective about people she mingles with. She's open minded, but yet she is not letting people get to close to her easily. She likes sweet words and compliments, but not too much. (so true,im very selective in who i mingles with,i dont like to mix with people who are dumb dumb one,omg i sound so bad!)
She smiles with anyone, but inside she thinks she is borne to be a leader. She likes to be in control because it is in her nature instinct. She is a graceful woman , and she has a magnetic charisma, so expect tough competition. (quite true,most of the time i like to be the leader of a group)
She is a very proud person, so do not do anything to challenge her confident. She can be mad and act like a hurricane, and later can be like an innocent kitten, but do not fall for her O.K. She remembers everything and likes to cherish her sweet memory, so if you find her old photo albums with her ex-boyfriend or love letters that will make you puke, take it easy. She is keeping her sweet memory does not mean she still in love with the old fool, so you do not have to panic. (VERY TRUE!!!i love to cherish sweet memories,i even kept the things my ex bfs gave and put it in a box.once in a while i will take it out and see.oh ya,i can be like a hurricane!hehe,dont offend me ar!)
She will have many guys run after her, so if you have advantage of a good background family, or a famous last name, a successful career then it's a plus. She hates to be poor and she thinks love will not pay bills. (many meh??haaa..oh dear,how true can it be,i really hate being poor,seen the previous entries of my blogs on money matter?it caused me to be so unhappy)
She is a sport type and love sports. If you want to date her, prepare to spend big bugs, for your first dinner with her can not be a hot dog stand, but better be the best place in town. She is a generous person, so do not be surprise if she give you a gift more expensive than what you gave her. She likes extravaganza, no cheap gift, no cheap dinner please. Being poor or broke make her depress. If you do not have lots of money, be creative and make your own gift for her. It's unique quality and times spending making it for her is a big deal. You can think economical, but do not be cheap. (haha,make the leo girls sound so materialistic.hehe but kinda true la,i likes extravaganza gifts!!!it can me smile with my teeth all shown..hehe)
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posted @ 8:28 PM
Transformation using photoshop!!!hehe pretty amazing...
i tried to remove the braces and it looks pretty weird,never mind i will improve on it again..my teeths just looked bigger..haha
This pic is taken 2years back when crystal and i suffer from acne breakouts because of puberty..i cleared our pimples away and our faces became clearer and less oily.i even removed a strand of hair.haa..cool huh?anyway this pic sucks la even after the pimples are gone,i mean myself.haha,look like char tao.
posted @ 4:54 PM
From the top left hand corner:Nadia,wan ting n i.
From the top right hand corner:Izyan and i
From the bottom right:sharon,ting n i again..
Im glad it's back to the weekends!hur hur.I just watched finish i not stupid 2 the movie,though it was my second time watching it but it still moved me to tears.Some parts are really funny also.Yesterday went to school and initially i thought of joining the class to the steamboat but i dont want to spend money so i didnt went.Anyway not many people went as well.So instead i went to have dinner with angel,peng and geraldine before going to my ex bf's house.hmm must be wondering what am i doing at my ex bf's house??!!haha actually i went there just to see his new born niece.She looks really adorable.She just cant seems to live without her grandmother.Babies and children are all the same,once they dont see familiar faces they will start to cry.I remember during the first day of my primary school when my mum went home leaving me all alone at school,i started crying.haha.Anyway we took some pictures before lecture,i shall post it here.Im loving my poly friends now..haha oh ya sharon is the convent girl i used to loathe but i realised she isnt that irritating as i had always thought.instead i find her a really great person to crap with.we always talk about online shopping and anything funny la.so so,never judge a book by its cover.hehe.by the way the pics isnt that nice cause our flaws on the face just cant be hidden from the digital cam.no wonder so many girls nowadays use photoshop to edit-_-'' keke..alright im sleepy,its time for my afternoon nap,cya!
posted @ 4:23 PM
My mood is back to a full 100percent!!!Guess it's because of some shopping at Bugis today and the new colour on my hair!!!!Yippie yippie...You guys must be wondering how come the poor jose has become so rich again,tell u le my mum strike lottery then she spent "a little" on her big splendor daughter.haha.oh man,i did some revision last night that i overslept and it was all the alarm clock's fault!shity!Tomorrow must wake up early to be the first to queue at the polyclinic.If i overslept again,you can never see me in TP again.Yesterday angel was supposed to meet us at TM for the job interview but luckily she didnt went cause it was not on vacant anymore but we all met at CP for dinner.After that we saw this meiji chocalates that came with a bear,every birthday has a different bear.ah juan was finding for her's so profusely but in the end she still took her favourite PINKKK colour.and what the hell,they hardly had any august month.however i particulaly fancied one green bear without any date on it and when i was about to tell angel,she was also eyeing and holding on to a SIMILAR one!!!how coincidence it can be,i think if we were to participate in any friendship contest,we are BOUND to WINNN and i mean it!!haha.. and therefore both of us decided to get it and hang it on our hp.hehe,i miss the feeling of having an identical keychains on our hp(we used to buy during sec sch days) because it shows how much we value each other's friendships.Funny huh,girls normally write in their blog about their boyfriend but im writing about my best friend..haha im turning les soon!!!Anyway this isnt the time to date,whereas i should focus my time on studying and working...hehe :) alright got to do some type written work now,ciaos my beloved ones......
posted @ 10:58 PM
Im feeling terrible both inside and outside.Temperature increased again last night that i cant sleep.Mum's incessant rants on my dad just worsen my headache.Last night,I sent a long sms to my dad which caused me to weep non-stop,something really sad.My tears are now so unimportant.Why cant i cope with problems more efficiently?Why am i always making myself feeling so miserable?Again,Angel was there for me.I really dont know what to do without her.I really miss her and my other friends.School always restrain us from seeing one another.Lord,please help me through this darkest period of my life...
posted @ 11:21 AM
The flu bug is attacking me again.Im feeling so sick now and my head feels so heavy.I wonder how many times i have been ill ever since January,5,6 or 7 ?I dont know.Can you believe the chinese god tingy actually did had effect but of course not on me but my mum.She striked lottery!haha.Though its a small sum but at least she won something right?Im looking forward to thursday because it's time for some shopping.Actually seriously,i really need to do some job-hunting already.My bank is dried till i dont know what to say.I just called my bro a few days ago because of stress and i sobbed.haha he told me his gf also got a breakdown because of stress.I guess its not only me,many people faces it too.Money isnt easy to earn so i must learn to treasure it.It's time for me to head to bed,sweet dream!
posted @ 9:55 PM
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The front cover on the card which i had made for him...
I just browsed through friendster and i finally saw her."her" refers to Gabriel's new girlfriend.A few days ago,while rushing i saw him and a girl holding hands.The feeling at that time was weird.Im not upsat or anything but it just felt funny.All along,his love and concern just seems to shower on me only but now im like a nobody to him.I wanted to walk up to him and say hi but something just stopped me.His gf look kind of sweet and innocent.Totally different from me.Anyway im glad that there is somebody there for him and he has forgotten clean about me.Im just sad that i lose a really great friend.I dont expect him to treat me as nice as he used to,i just hope at least we are still friends.Is it really hard for a girl and a boy to be great friends?why must it always end up in a situation whereby either one will like the other?I presumed he saw me that day and i believed he must be feeling happy inside because im back single yet he found someone."All my life" this song just made me think of him,his goodness and everything.Every single day spent him were nice and lovely,i just seems to be the most blissful girl on earth.I still remembered he shred the chicken meat for me because i was lazy to use my hands despite it was still hot and he bought me hello kitty cutlery to eat for my birthday cake(at that time i was mad about hello kitty).We even sang on the phone from night till morning.This song was dedicated to me when we are still friends.I miss him though.Anyway i wish him happiness with his new girl now...
posted @ 3:55 AM
Im feeling so ill now,my whole body just seems so hot.Instead of resting at home,i went down with my mum and aunty Wendy to pray for good luck.My block beside had a buddist kind of thing going on(dont know what to call that).I finally got to see how the immortals possessed the people's body.They had the monkey God,page boy,Guangyin ma and more.So we all had to buy those incense paper and joss stick and follow the immortals around and cross a bridge.As we cross the bridge,we got to say "bad luck go away and good luck come" in hokkien.The last stage was the duo pei gong "house",we get to ask what we want.I asked for my studies and he said that it will be all right and he told me not to worry.He kept speaking to me in hokkien and i could not understand a single thing so the uncles around kept translating to me.so funny!!i was so blur.Then he told me to light the candles outside and pray again.When i stepped out of the "house",i realised i forget to ask about my Mr.Right.arghh!!haha..even aunty wendy said i should not let this opportunity of asking slip away.My mum said i so kan chiong to marry for what.haha.There is one man who was the helper actually guided me along and told me what to do.He even gave me his namecard and told me if i pray sincerly,my prayers will be answered.He remembered my name too.haha.it has been so long since someone called me "Hui wen".Its so weird,im beginning to believe in chinese God now but im a catholic,cannot cannot!!!!Im feeling so guilty now.oh mine!anyway they also gave us the mee sua and red eggs for us to cook and eat for luck.I must even burn the paper that the dua pei gong gave me and drink the water.Actually chinese got a lot of funny little things,i kept laughing down there.My mum even scolded me and told me not to talk anyhow.It was quite a great experience as to expose to such religious things.Anyway,i just hope that from tomorrow onwards,my luck will change for a better and everything will run smoothly for me too.haha i seems to be so supersticious already.I think now whatever thing that can change my luck,i will still give it a try because i am really facing a lot of problems this year that gonna turn me bonkers soon.okay,I want to rest now,good night!
posted @ 10:58 PM
These few days have been really hetic for me.I was tired,stressed and upsat.Yesterday i was extremely down,it seems like the whole world has fall on me.I went with my mum to meet the bitch's daughter.My mum told her about the affair of my dad and her mum.she was shocked.My mum cried as she spoke and i helplessly just sat there.For 3 years,their family was kept in the dark and life just goes on happily for them but what about my family?We just have to experience this trumatised situation and carry the burden all by ourselves.Her daughter said she wont let her younger brother know about this matter only after he had completed his degree.That's so sweet of a sister to do that and that's so lucky of his brother not to know that.He was protected for fear it will affect his studies.What about me?im different,i knew it all right from the start and got to go through so much of pain.it is so unfair!i just cried my way home.though i know my dad is having an affair but in my heart i always hope what i heard or what i believed is not true.Now i just felt that why am i working so hard,giving tution,work during the weekends while my dad is happily using the money he is supposed to give me to spend it on the woman.I felt foolish,sometimes i even sympathised with him and told him to give me less.Right now,i dont think i will have the time to date,to relax and to enjoy.Im tired,really tired.I really need a shoulder to lie on but everyone seems busy with their lifes...where are you guys...:`(
posted @ 10:42 AM