My rollercoaster life.
name:Josephine
age:18
location:Singapore
Interest:
Shopping,eating,singing,reading
Fav movies:
Horror,comical,romance
Fav Music:
r&b and pop
My wishlist:
To be independent, focusing more on my studies, respect my mum, be with him as long as fate allows us!
Ah tal Desiree Ai ren Wan Ting Juan juan Bay bay Shawna Sweetest couple JLAI Amanda Weiwen .February 2006.March 2006.April 2006.May 2006.June 2006.July 2006.August 2006.September 2006.October 2006.November 2006.December 2006.January 2007.February 2007

Friday, September 29, 2006

Ah jo is complaining again...she is damm f*cking tired!!!!I was late for work today but luckily the manager did not say anything.Well,for the past few days,its just pressing the buttons and folding the clothes and back to pressing the buttons again...repetitive work,at first it was kinda fun but now BORING!!!Work is never enjoyable.Recently heard a lot of conflicts between the staffs and some told me to be careful of certain people.Now,i miss school but without exams.HAHA!FAT HOPE!Ok,work isnt that bad la,at least my friends came to visit me.During my off day,i met ah tal for dinner and went to play pool with seng they all.Then the next day,they came to look for me and accompanied me for dinner.Thanks a lot ya!I just likes my two best friends standing beside me and chatting with me,they just makes my day!Im refering to angel and crystal.hehe.While today ,angel came to keep me company again..feel so fortunate to have such great besties...=) and of coz my wonderful bf.Though he cant keep me company physically but i know he is always there for me mentally.He never fail to call me when he is having his break and ask me how i am.Thats good enough for me.

Recently,i got my allowance and my dad still short me of money.I wonder if im really that angry with my dad or i had changed to a hard hearted person.When he asked me about it,i forced myself not to look at his face for fear i will change of heart and told him to forget about the short of money.It has been 3 consecutive months long since i had spoken to my dad a word.This is the longest time i had not spoke to him at all.And for 3 months,i no longer felt the fatherly love i always had.In fact deep down in my heart,i still love my dad a lot.However the hurt and impact he created make me retreat from him slowly and slowly away.We started to pack our stuffs into boxes already,preparing to move out from this current house after the second letter arrives.This also means after we move out,i'll not see my dad anymore.Whenever i look at the photos of my dad and i,tears start rolling down.Its time to face the reality.Im on my own already.My mum is all i have.I will try my best to give her a comfortable life like how she used to give me ever since i came into this world.Lord,lead me through...

posted @ 10:43 PM

Monday, September 25, 2006

Tomorrow is jojo's off day!!Yaaaaaaaaa...hoooooooooo!!!MUHAHAHA!Yes!yes!yes!I want to replenish my lost sleep.super fatigue now.My job was fine,met a few friendly staffs & time passes very quickly especially during the weekends.Saturday after work,dear's family came to pick me up for dinner at chinatown.It was nice eating with them.I feel the family warm and the lost feeling that i once had with my family too.Sitting with them in the car makes me think of the time when my parents,my brother and I went out together as a happy family.Dear is so lucky to have such great kins,im happy for him.:) Then the next day,dear brought me to work and even accompanied me till lunch time.I feel so blessed and secured to have him by my side,he always gave me the feeling that i have someone to rely on.

Just now watched spore idol results show with my mummy.She LOST!!!haha.I meant she lost the bet i had with her.She bet on Jonathon while i bet on Hady though i prefer jonathon.I opposed her just to spite her coz she is really into Jonathon.She is full of praises for him.haha but the end result was,Hady won!when they annouced it,i was dumbfounded,especially my dear mum.She was so dissapointed that she nearly cried.I laughed until i lied down on the floor when i saw her expression.She kept scolding vuglurities whenever Hady said something.Really funny.She must be falling head over heels for Jonathon.I never seen my mum so agitated over this kind of thing before.haha.

Im so sad now.Why does a relationship become so fragile after ones true colour was shown?..i miss crystal very much.i miss swimming with her,i miss talking to her about "that" stuffs,i miss munching tibits wit her,i miss just she and i sitting in the bus travelling from one place to another,i just miss her!Working takes away many of our leisure time but i know its all worthwhile coz after the hardship,enjoyment is on our way..haha..k le..time to sign off..good night!

posted @ 11:14 PM

Friday, September 22, 2006

Almost freaked out when i looked myself into the mirror,i thought i saw a panda..Last night i watched er zuo ju until 6am in the morning.I think im crazy over this drama already.This show is so sweet.At first i dont really like the leading actress because i think she doesnt look pretty at all.haha but after a few series,i think she looks really adorable.The leading actor is quite suave.keke.I like this drama a lot because the never say die spirit of xiang qing(the lead actress) really very gan ren fei fu.(haha another idiom!)while zhi shu(the lead actor) give the bu nai face made the whole show almost so perfect.haha whenever i watch this show,i will think of an an.Maybe its because he recommended me this show..haha.hmm im missing him abit liao..alright i wanna koon liao..wan an!

posted @ 11:00 PM

Thursday, September 21, 2006

My legs are going to break soon...working is so tough..though its quite relaxing because there arnt many people but whenever customers wanna foot the bill,im all tense up!Its so pressurising being a cashier.I get nervous whenever something goes wrong.Lucky the staffs there are so kind,i kept calling them for help yet they didnt mind and told me to relax.sigh,I will never be a cashier again!NEVER EVER AGAIN!However I will not let this stop me from making money.I will bear with it,its just a month!I CAN DO IT!!!Actually this whole month im working everyday,though there is an off day,i have to give tuition too.I feel so sick la!Why i must work so hard??I really hope i can just marry to a rich guy and enjoy luxuriously for the rest of my life.I know this is a wishful thinking and it will never be possible.Actually i no need a rich husband also,as long i can be a housewife and he can give me enough money,im contented already.I rather be a housewife than work!!!I prefer to cook delicious food and wait for my husband to come home everyday than staying in the office dealing with all the paperwork.I RATHER DIE!!!ARGHHH....I HATE WORKING!!!~:`( i prefer studying..no no i prefer to be a toodler,no work and no study..wahh super good!Free from worries too.Being a kid is always so nice BUT everyone gonna grow up.Alright no more whining and grumbling...i will jia you de!Anyway my life is quite blissful now because i have a wonderful mum whom cook for me healthy and yummy dinner,a boyfriend that dote on me a lot and friends that give me support.hehe.Yesterday i finally saw an an after 3 days,his ah pa come and fetch me home.so nice...i sat the car again.ai ya whoever drive me i will love the person to max...I JUST LOVE TRANSPORT!!!!hmm i mean private transport..hahaha..alamak,i sounds so lazy huh..anyway im lazy by nature.hehe.1 more day and i can see him again!!goody goody..ok dont know what to type liao..byebye..sayonara!!!

posted @ 10:38 PM

Monday, September 18, 2006

Today i met up with the 3 amazing ladies,yesh they are my most important friends in life,Glitz!~.However sadly,i only spent 3 pathetic hours with them because of tuition again.We went to the budget ktv at hougang cc!only 5.50 per person wor.cheap right?its dearie recommended one.lalala!~so funny today we laughed and laughed as we sang.ah tal so cute,she picked a nursary song"london bridge".Its like so long since we had such a good laugh.Last time in class,we always laughed until our classmates cnt tahan us.I really love them a lot a lot!!!sigh..tml must work le..how??abit reluctant now.i think i must be a siao,i now feel like stop working and studying and be a shao nai nai.AH JOSE BU KE YI ARHH!!~~you must have backbone and contribute to the society!!!second sigh...dear is also working hard now.i think he is worst,his work is more tough than mine.I think we will have less time for each other now.That's so sad but nvm,absence made one heart fonder and also we will have more money to spend.yi ju liang de!wahh my chinese so pro now ar,i noe how to use idioms leh.haha lame le...tml i must ganbate!!!RICH ah jose is on the way to make her first thousand..................

posted @ 11:08 PM

Sunday, September 17, 2006

Finally im back to church!haha.Im really a bad catholic,always go one time then skip.Anyway our catholic community is facing a vocation crisis now and its so serious that they even created a video to encourage all of us to pray.Actually i think this society has changed so much that not many young people are really devote to religion kind of stuffs.So finding someone to be a priest now is really difficult...Singapore is so lack of priests that we got to get them overseas.My parish priest used to be a China man.Hopefully the number of priests will increase soon.hehe anyway im glad to know that Ai ren is attached!!Gong xi gong xi!Coincidence thing is we both are attached at almost the same time.keke.We are out of the single club!!!haha.Actually many were surprised that Guo an and i are together now,even im shocked too!i really cant believe la.We are classmates since sec2 and then suddenly we became so close.weird thing is we dont talk much to each other at that time.How i wish we are together earlier..errr..but its impossible la,coz we arnt attracted to each other at that period of time.ai ya besides us,also got other people that got together unexpectedly,like ah tal and bran lor.hahaha.1 used to be a school belle then another one used to be a school nerd then suddenly get together,wahh this one super crazy la!haha but in the end they also quite happy together what.hmm cupid zai zuo guai!but my dearie is really good to me la.I must treasure him.hehe today he lend me taiwan drama DVDs to watch le,i wont be bored liao!!happy happy!ok la..i wanna go watch my er zuo ju le..sayonara...

posted @ 9:36 PM

Saturday, September 16, 2006

Do we look sweet??
People said he look like korean actor,haha!


What a faithful trip yesterday!Our pulau ubin trip was cancelled because of the damm rain.I love rain but it just fall on the wrong time.Guess where we head to again?Century square!Wo de tian ar!i went there for like 3 days in a row already.We watched the Banquet.Quite nice but the stupid thing is all of them die in the end.Can anyone just tell me the morale of the story??Anyway the guys also bought for us chocalates,super yummy!Very expensive also,1 small box cost about 10bucks.Its good chocalate thats explained why.Then after the movie,I went to an an house for dinner.His mum whipped up some delicious dishes like kang kong and chicken..had an enjoyable dinner yesterday!After that we decided to walk with q q and panda downstairs.They super strong la,run and run like mad dog!!haha.Then we past by ah za house so i called her down for a chat.i miss her like mad lor.hehe.misses the time we walked to school together.alright i shall end here,wanna go makan le..shall post some pictures here..

posted @ 12:34 PM

Friday, September 15, 2006

Josephine finally has the time to update her blog.I was super busy for the past few days.Alright,what did i done for the past few days...hmm..seriously i cant remember,dead i think im really suffering from short term memory.i just remember i went for my job interview then movie then..anyway forget it!i shall say what i did today.

yesh yesh i finally met my beloved ah mui!!!i missesssss herrrrr tilllllll i feel like hugging her..hehe.as usual,we have endless conversation.She treated me to a feast today at Phin's steakhouse.Thanks ah mui!After i get my pay,it will be my turn.Billy bombers yay!!!we walked around TM and after much dilly dally,i decided to buy the orange heels.Its so so so SEXY!!!I cant wait to wear it.haa!Then we chatted about our secondary sch days.super hilarious la!Can you imagine at the beginning of this year,i wasnt used to my poly life because i felt that sth was missing in my life and i realised it was her that i missed.For the past few years,we have been seeing each other almost everyday,going to sch together,eating together,going home together and even for our weekends,we spent time together.Hell!She is like so so IMPORTANT to me.I think i love her more than my bf.HAHAHA.I cant wait for Monday to come coz Glitz is going out...haha!!!

And tml im goin PULAU UBIN!!~Im going with an an,ah tal and bran..I think my holidays im always spending time with them.haha but i really enjoy it.An an treated me really well but i think he is too good that i feel bad sometimes.i dont know what im thinking la and what i really wants.It's really weird.Am i right getting into a relationship?I feel restricted.Anyway,i need to work next week already.Had been splurging too much of money recently.but retail therapy makes me feel good...extremely extremly good!~

sigh!!i did badly for my exams.im getting all the Cs and Ds.I think i really let my mum down.I really feel so fortunate to have such a mother.I called her to tell her my results and she didnt reprimand me instead she told me nicely that if working caused me to lose concentration on my studies,she will find another odd job and give me extra money.when i heard this,i really feel like telling my mum how much i love her.I had also realised that i had not been spending time with her or even have a decent meal with her.This saturday i shall give her all my time.I must not let her down anymore and i will definately buck up next sem and show her some good results.

alright,i should be getting some rest now.My two eyebags are like goldfish eyes now.by the way i miss my poly friends too especially Izyan and ting.i hope to see them next week...

posted @ 12:24 AM

Sunday, September 10, 2006

I was out the whole day!At first, bran and i were supposed to meet at church for mass but he got the timing all wrong so instead we went to cp for breakfast with his parents.Then an an and ah tal came to meet us later.Hehe we bought our keychain already,its very sweet and nice,got magnet one.haha.After that i suggest to go to town coz i wanna buy all my daily necessity,shampoo,conditoner blah blah blah..actually tal and i wanna settle our lunch at pepper lunch but we all had no money.:( i must eat pepper lunch one day!!!i dont care!!haha.in the end we ate yoshinoya but also yummy la.hehe.then we headed to our ktv,actually we wanna sing at hougang cc which cost super cheap but then we decided to go chinatown to sing.then when we went around to ask about the price,we realised its over our budget,can you believe ah tal and i kept bargaining with the kbox captain for a cheaper rate.he seems bu nai fan.haha.ai ya nvm la,no money is like that.then we thought we no chance to sing le but after that an an brother came to the rescue.we went kster for free!!!haha,we only have to pay for the drinks!so good leh!!happy happy,ah jose juz like free things.:P so we sang till 9pm and then we went back home liao.i feel that these 2 days we are like on a holiday,eat and enjoy,eat and enjoy.ming tian wo yao jian fei le!!!oh yeah today i ate my sesame paste le!!so happy!haha.hmm..i think im getting more and more close to an an le..i wonder why i like him..i think he really make the girl he likes feel special.oh ya i remembered i mentioned in my previous blog that whoever be his gal will be lucky,i cant believed the person might be me.chemistry and love strucked without you knowing can be quite a mystery...well..i had enjoyed myself too much already,its time to eat some hardship,next week i must do labour le..sian..sigh..btw i miss my ah mui..it has been so long since i saw her,she seems busy with her work,mui mui,if u c my blog,u must call me k..i miss u lots!!!btw i super love this jay chou song la...damm nice lor..repeat dunnoe hw many times le..so romantic..jay chou is super shuai too..haha my idol..

posted @ 11:15 PM

Today im kinda happy again.haha,my life seems to be getting more and more bountiful.Perhaps its the power of love of my friends and somebody la.oh yeah,today i went with ah tal to swim at my aunt's condo.though i exercised,i think my effort all merely went down to the drain coz we ate all the super fattening food.we went to buy tibits plus my mum also bought for us biscuits,die loh,like that can no need to thin liao.sigh.then after that we went to meet an an and bran.the 2 of us so poor thing can,wait for them for like 1 hour,just drift from one end to another end with a hungry stomach.hehe but after seeing him made my anger all dissappeared.anyway he is not as late at bran la so nvm.hahaha.his family also came along and they treated us to eat.so good hor..ai ya shit man i ate nasi lemak today.nvm nvm dont say le wait i more guilty.haha and the funny thing of today is ah tal and bran kept bickering non-stop,make me laugh.anyway i really hope they will get back together coz both r my good friends!!tml i shall pray for them.then after the hearty meal,an an dad drove us home,wahh his car very comfortable and big.i really enjoy car ride.tml we are going to church together and after that going to ktv!!woo la la..hao qi dai wor..hopefully next week trip to pulau ubin will be successful too..i love my life now bcoz i have u,u and only u...=)

posted @ 1:11 AM

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Ah jose today is mad!She feels like eating cheesecake,pasta,chocalates,mochi icecream and lots more!!!arghhhh!!!~~save me from those hunger pangs!stupid sun just dont seems to go away,i want to run but i also want to protect my skin against the uv rays!nvm nvm,1 more hour and im going to swim,this round 100 times.sigh...i wanna go sing ktv tonight!!!i wan to sing my lungs out.i feel so stress and pressurize to control my diet.next week got sony ericssion gathering at zouk,dont know wanna go anot,like so bo liao lor.haizz mood swings recently.btw yest i went to an an house and i saw his mother,sister and brother.haha the family seems nice & warm.The mother like very dote on them.I so xian mu him because he has a happy and complete family.Butttt nvm,maybe this is God's will,i might not have a happy family but i may have something special that others dont have.so dont compare!!!!haha and yesterday anan nv wear spects ever since sec sch days and i think he looks so cool without it..ai ya bo liao dont wanna type le,fingers tired liao,i must prepare to call the ah tal to wake up,PIG!!!shud change to ah de lor..y everyone is sleeping???hello people,its noon,WAKE UPPP!!!~~bye bye..haizzz...

posted @ 3:15 PM

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Some random pictures of today...cam-whoring as usual..haahaa
me in my bling bling glitter cap...off to my fren's house!!!
Trying to act cute again...kawaii pose no.1
kawaii pose no.2...flaunting my pink little braces..haha
kawaii pose no.3..
back to my lovely smile...hahaha...
im loving this top!!!
ok..now trying to act ma chiam im modelling..what a lucious lip i have!!! i want to be a hair model!!!hahaha...
la la la...enough of cam-whoring...THE END!!!

posted @ 11:16 PM


Day 1:
After a nice bath,everyone looked refresh..
Wan jun,izyan,me and ting

The four drinks of the night..
Pretty lil shawna...
holding the bottles for photo purposes..haha..
the 4 of us slept together..it's so nice spending the night with them!=D
Sensible rebecca and us..haha..rebecca is really a matured n sensible gal!!
17,18,19....HAHA thats our age la!!bt i seems like the oldest hor...

Day 2:BBQ day
me holding the plate for izyan to put the hotdogs,she look like satay gal rite?
this guy is the joker in our class,our cracking lame jokes to us..haha mr tim!!
back to us..the 3 goody goody friends..both of dem r my loves..
sweetie izy izy...
Nice hotdogs rite??but this cause me to run 4 rounds!!!*angry angry*
chatting and chilling out..thats when shawna started drinking!!!
our class pic..bt its only half of us,the rest dont know go where..
back to our room and back to our photo taking obsession!!haa
leo chics..tats what izy named the both of us..keke bo liao..
ai yo!!!who eat one ar??haha its us la!!eat until damm shiok sia!!
beautiful ladies...:P
chinkiat(jay chou wannabe),sean(mr macdonald) and pretty me.hahahaha!!
wahh c e diff btwn our skin colours,so hapi to c my skin so fair!!ms snow white!
beware of this guy ar!!!he hor..ai yo...beta dun say..hahaha..stupid bear!

posted @ 10:45 AM

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

i just returned home from chalet and a jog around punggol park.I was damm guilty for eating the potatoe chips and hotcakes that when i reached home,i immediately put down my bag,changed into a sports attire and ran to punngol park.haa!I was supposed to stay for 2 nights but my mum dont allow and i got to give tuition ,however after tuition,i got to rush back for BBQ.Anyway yesterday we had a really splendid time together.Izyan,wanjun,nadia and i went to wild wild wet!!it was free!hahaha super happy!so fun la and quite scary.I think im quite timid now,im scared of heights and those thrilling rides.I used to love it when i was young and i was always the brave one to try out everything first,i guess people do change as they grow older.i actually screamed extremely loud that izyan kept laughing!!!The gals are really great to hang out with,we were gigling and playing all the way.izyan is always the di siao siao one.haha.after that we join the rest of the class for dinner and then return back to the little game in our chalet.We were playing "even or odd" and who guessed wrongly gonna drink either barcadi or vodka.My heart beats very fast whenever its my turn because i dont like to drink alcohol and i scared i will be drunk.hahaha.sounds like a small innocent gal..thanks god,im super duppee lucky for the first few rounds,i kept guessing it correctly.yet poor shawna who was sitting infront of me kept losing,so she decided to change her seat as well as her feng shui.but bloody hell,after she changed,i started losing and i drank 2 cups.eeyyee i hate it,drink until my head abit giddy.after the game,we went for a midnight walk and it was really scary and irritating because of all those flies but i still enjoyed it bcoz 1b03 is a butch of lovable peeps.haha.i really really love my class!!!then when we went back,the gals had a heart to heart chat about guys and guys and more guys!!!haha everyone seems to have problem with guys.they said im so lucky bcoz my love is 2-sided while theirs are 1-sided but that doesnt means 2-sided is always the fortunate one.becausei still dont wish to get into a relationship and i felt really bad.im selfish!anyway i just let nature take its course.okok...i need to bathe already...byee..

posted @ 2:48 PM

i just returned home from chalet and a jog around punggol park.I was damm guilty for eating the potatoe chips and hotcakes that when i reached home,i immediately put down my bag,changed into a sports attire and ran to punngol park.haa!I was supposed to stay for 2 nights but my mum dont allow and i got to give tuition ,however after tuition,i got to rush back for BBQ.Anyway yesterday we had a really splendid time together.Izyan,wanjun,nadia and i went to wild wild wet!!it was free!hahaha super happy!so fun la and quite scary.I think im quite timid now,im scared of heights and those thrilling rides.I used to love it when i was young and i was always the brave one to try out everything first,i guess people do change as they grow older.i actually screamed extremely loud that izyan kept laughing!!!The gals are really great to hang out with,we were gigling and playing all the way.izyan is always the di siao siao one.haha.after that we join the rest of the class for dinner and then return back to the little game in our chalet.We were playing "even or odd" and who guessed wrongly gonna drink either barcadi or vodka.My heart beats very fast whenever its my turn because i dont like to drink alcohol and i scared i will be drunk.hahaha.sounds like a small innocent gal..thanks god,im super duppee lucky for the first few rounds,i kept guessing it correctly.yet poor shawna who was sitting infront of me kept losing,so she decided to change her seat as well as her feng shui.but bloody hell,after she changed,i started losing and i drank 2 cups.eeyyee i hate it,drink until my head abit giddy.after the game,we went for a midnight walk and it was really scary and irritating because of all those flies but i still enjoyed it bcoz 1b03 is a butch of lovable peeps.haha.i really really love my class!!!then when we went back,the gals had a heart to heart chat about guys and guys and more guys!!!haha everyone seems to have problem with guys.they said im so lucky bcoz my love is 2-sided while theirs are 1-sided but that doesnt means 2-sided is always the fortunate one.becausei still dont wish to get into a relationship and i felt really bad.im selfish!anyway i just let nature take its course.okok...i need to bathe already...byee..

posted @ 2:48 PM

Monday, September 04, 2006

la la la la!!!!~~~Josephine is having a wonderful day today!Firstly i got to meet my beloved brother and next i went out with ah tal and lastly,i met an an.hahaha.Today i see my kor kor,i think he is very pitiful because he told me that everyone seems to take advantage of him just because he has a kind heart.my dad,my mum,my bro,his frens,his collegues,his gf and even me seems to take him for granted.Now i know whats the reason for him not returning home to sleep.Anyway my home doesnt seems like a home also.:(Today my cousin called to tell me that she saw my dad and his gf outside,after hearing that i was filled with anger and sadness but what can i do,its just adding more hatred for him.alright enough of unhappy stuffs..today i suddenly feel like exercising so i called ah tal to jog with me but she wanna swim instead so i suggest that we go to my aunt's condo for a swim.wahh ah jose is so good gal leh,she swim for "55 laps"..haha but the laps is short distance one la.ai ya bt still swim wat.happy lor!feel a sense of achievment n satisfaction!!after that we headed to the suana,steamy hot la!haha.i really enjoy going out and talking with ah tal now..i feel that we have return back to the sec2 times where both of us r like hao jie mei.ah tal,lets not hide anything fr each other,talking it out make each of us understand one another better..hehe i luv u so much...then after that we met an an and brandon at TM for dinner.actually i like 4 of us go out together,like so sweet..hahaha..siao le siao le.after that we went to punggol end for a stroll.at 12am,we leave the place because im super sleepy le and i got to get ready for tml chalet.haha and an an drove me home,drove leh,he didnt bluff me sia,he really know how to drive car.i just like man who knows how to drive..hehe.i cant wait for friday bcoz we r getting the couple keychain together..haha!!okok i wanna orh orh le..tml off to my chalet!!!zai jian and tc everyone...ah jose misses u all..muacks!!!~~~

posted @ 12:45 AM

Friday, September 01, 2006

Im so Happy!Because i saw Mr Yeo today!!!hehehe.his baby is so adorable..i miss his lessons so much.he used to dote on crystal and i,both of us never fail to look for him whenever we are in school.anyway im glad he is happily settled down le.Also,i finally chatted with ah cheong online after so long..keke..i really enjoy and feel comfortable telling him my love life and problems.His advices are always so useful.He will always be my NUMBER.1 favourite teacher!!!!ah cheong zui ban!!~hahaha.haizz..but just when we chatted about slimming,he said when he saw me a few months ago when i slim down,i look prettier.now he said i like fatter abit liao.haizz..heart pain.bastard food!!!stop tempting and luring me to eat u can???especially chocalates..u bloody idiot!!haizz!dun say le dont say le..i always ban tu er fei..so sick of myself..by the way tommorow i gonna meet my kor kor!!!super happy la!!coz i misses him so much...i hardly had a nice chat wif him ever since he had been attached(n tat is like 7 yrs ago lor!!:( )...since now he is single,i should quickly spend time with him before he patch back or has a new gf!!!hahaha...and if he has a new gf,i hope she wont be a possesive and control freak!!coz i want my kor kor to be a happy person and i want a sister in law that will love me as much as my bro loves me.After seeing so many break down in people relationship,i began to have phobia towards it or rather i already had.im afraid to get hurt again and im scared of commitment now.i dont want to be tied down.i want to enjoy my youth!anyway its not good to think of that..really...i must pray to God to let me overcome this!!!got to sleep..sayonara...

posted @ 11:08 PM