In dear papa car..so comfy!!hehe..
Zaza's baby sister..damm cute!!!
The old us..reminising the old times we had together..
I had an enjoyable weekend yet feeling blue at the same time.During Saturday, i went back to school for a make-up lesson.After lesson,i went with my butch of classmates to TM for lunch.I brought them to see my pretty ah mui.I wanted my best friend to know my good friends as well like ting ting.The minute they saw her,they all said we looked alike.Hmmm..Maybe since sec sch days,we had been seeing each other almost everyday thats why there are some similarities to our posture and the way we speak.Then after lunch,i went to my big aunt's house to visit both her and my brother.I wanted to see how he was doing.He was sick for 2 weeks.I just felt sorry for him.Sometimes i just think life is so unfair.He did so much for the family and since young he has been a good and sensible boy but why did his life seems so wreakless now?I really love my brother a lot and i hope his life will change for a better.Anyway,im glad he is staying with my aunt now,at least there is someone to look after him.
After that, dear came to fetch me and accompanied me to church.During mass, i had so much to pray for and so much of forgiveness to seek from God.Then,after mass ended we went to meet Jerry and Helen for dinner at Swensen.I love the tuna salad,its so healthy and yummy.Then,we decided to end our day at a stroll by the beach.Dear and i had a heart to heart talk by the beach.I like the ambience and atmosphere there,making me feel really peaceful and free of worries.Im so thankful for having him as my boyfriend, he is always there for me rain or shine.Glad to have him in my life now...
However,when i reached home.Mummy came to my room and told me that we could only rent a 1 room flat.I broke down and cried.1 room flat???!Which means there will be no room for me and maybe no air con for me as well.I admit from young im being pampered by my parents, though im not living in a big bungalow houses but the average yet comfortable house gave me the family warm and love that i need.Now,asking me to stay in such place makes me really difficult to accept the fact in such a short period of time.I need time to adapt to a new enviroment and i need time to accept this drastic change.Its so much for me.I coped myself in the room and cried for the whole day.I know there is no point crying but im sad and thats how i express my feelings.The fact of moving into a small pathetic house bothers me but the most saddening part is i may not have a chance to see my dad anymore.I wanted so much to talk to him,i wanted to tell him that i still loves him but...it seems totally pointless now.Today i saw karen's dad and he resembles my dad ,maybe its because both are peranakans and english-speaking.When i heard karen and her dad happily having small arguments about food and teasing at one another,it makes me miss my dad a lot a lot.I really feel so empty inside.I just knew that all i have to do now is to work extra hard financially and studies to help out my mum.I suddenly felt pressurised and life seems so meaningless to me now...
Anyway i shall post some pictures i took with dear last weekend and the hari raya visit at ah za's house..
posted @ 10:45 PM
Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly
When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day
Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice withinYeah...Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
You'll make it
You'll make it
Just don't go forsaking yourself
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
posted @ 2:23 PM
im damm du lan now!!!i dun care if its a bad word or what...IM JUST SUPER ANGRY!!!!TOLD U ALL MANY TIMES DUN COME MY ROOM AND TOUCH MY THINGS!!!!ONCE I CNT FIND MY THINGS,I JUST FLARE UP AND SCOLD U $%%^%^^&&*^!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SO WHAT IF IM MESSY..BUT I STILL KNOWS WHERE I PLACED MY THING.N FOR WHAT FUCK PACK MY THINGS...WE ARE SHIFTING SOON!!!PACK WHAT SHIT????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!TELL MEe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!aRGHHHHHH!!!nOW MY NAILS RHINESTONE JUST SCATTERED ALL OVER MY FLOOR...BLOODY HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!HATE PPL TOUCHING MY THINGS!!!
posted @ 11:03 AM
"NOTICE OF VESTING AND TO TAKE POSSESSION",A notice that was pasted on my house door a few minutes ago.I knew this letter would come soon but i never expect when the moment i saw it,my tears started flowing.We have only 30 days from today to move everything out of our house.I suddenly misses all the furnitures i have at home,my bed,my table and everything.I really do not wish to move.I love my house..I really wonder where will i move to.If i move out from here,will all my friends in my neighbourhood forget about me?I dont want to create a distant with them.Im really sad...sigh...:`(
posted @ 2:36 PM
No one ever saw me like you do
All the things that I could add up to
I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes say everything without a single word
[chorus]
‘Cause there’s somethin’ in the way you look at me
It’s as if my heart knows you’re the missing piece
You made me believe that there’s nothing in this world I can’t be
I never know what you see
But there’s somethin’ in the way you look at me
If i could freeze some moment in my mind
Be the second that you touch your lips to mine
I’d like to stop the clock, make time stand still
‘Cause baby, this is just the way I always wanna feel
[repeat chorus]
[Bridge]
I dont know how or why I feel different in your eyes
All I know is it happens everytime
[repeat chorus]
The way you look at me
This song is FREAKINGGG sweet!!!If someone were to sing this to me, i think my heart will immediately melt..orhhhh..guys who are in love should really listen to this song...its so meaningful..
posted @ 11:05 PM
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lalala...=)
Bonsoir, comment vas tu?haha..these are the words i had learnt today.Today it was my first lesson of French.It was pretty fun,the teacher is so funky and hilarious.Hmm..school has started already.Finally i was able to meet all my beloved classmates.I misses them dearly.I realised many singles became attached after the holidays.I mean its just 2 months of break and things just changes so quickly and unexpectedly.Anyway, im already so attach to my class now,seeing them makes me really happy.I dont wish to change class next year.
Dear had also got his bike and i had also sat on it already.My first time was scary,my heart just raced.haha but now im not afraid anymore because i know im safe with him.Now ,dear fetches me to school every 2 days in a week which means i dont have to squeeze with all the students in the bus.keke.I believe love really makes a person really happy and fortunate.Having him in my life now makes me a different person.I hope this wonderful "journey" will continue.
I misses my old friends too.Just met ah tal and her kang kang on Monday.haha,wonder why her boyfriend is always so shy.She looks so xin fu now and im happy for her.Hopefully,he is the right one.I had not met ah mui for quite some now,hope she is doing fine too.I saw ah za too and im glad she is also leading a happy life now..hehe..alright,its now for my bath!salute!
By the way,I just went to Vivo city and its super HUGE.It has my favoruite Forever21 and Zara!Haha,another shopping paradise for girls!woo..hehe.i shall upload some of the pictures i took with dear today.
posted @ 9:36 PM
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Hai ying,chun hui and i!!!
My timetable is out!Im so happy with the schedule.Though i got to wake up extra early but i get to go home early.I got into French class for my elective subject.Im kinda happy to get in coz its my first choice.Also,ah ting and izyan are also in French.so coincidence..haha.Next time we shall practice together.Im looking forward to the first lecture.
Work is gonna end soon,3 more days and im back to school.During work,i met a couple of friends.Its so enjoyable working with them.I just knew this girl and coincidentally,we are in the same business school.We got many things to chat about,from make-ups to boys.I also got to know this girl from China.She was married to a singaporean just for the sake of leaving her homeland.She is really adorable,always cracking us up.She even cooked fried rice for us for lunch.Though its not really yummy but thats so thoughtful of her.hahaha.Hope to go shopping with the 2 of them soon..hehe.
Dear finally got his motorbike and FINALLY he will end his repetitive sentence"if i got bike...."hahaha..hmm..later gonna sit his bike le..wonder how it feels like.Today is also my off day and im slacking at home now..i missssssssssssssssss thisssss feeling..can you imagine for 1 whole month i was either working or going out and i never got a chance to lie on the sofa,holding the remote control switching from one channel to another.I just feel so relax!I love being a couch potatoe...haha..sign of laziness..buttt still later im going out..haha too a small little shopping spree..got to get my stationary and stuffs..alright i want to bathe already..bubbye!!!
Je t'aime my an an...
posted @ 2:52 PM
I was looking forward to the 18th which is today because i finally got my pay!!yoohooo!!!I was jumping for joy when i saw money on the ATM screen,my friend thought i was crazy.haha.The first thing i do when i got my pay was to look for dear's cap and the one i like.However,sadly the cap i like doesnt suits me because of the new shape.So i just bought for dear.Then i went to buy herbal tea for him too because his throat wasnt feeling really good this few days.I thought of surprising him by asking him to fetch me home today but but but..he told he is gonna be late.At that point when he said he is gonna be late,i felt so sad because it seems so pointless just sitting down at the interchange waiting for him,i might as well go home by myself without wasting any time.Then when he called again and explained why he was late,i was angry instead of sad.I was angry not because he couldnt fetch me on time,i was unhappy because he didnt said he was not on the way.Its like so troublesome for him.sigh,it makes me feel bad.He always place others infront of him and never think for himselfAs i was angry,i treated him coldly,haha but i always ended up giggling because his expression looked so cute when i ignored him.haha.anyway i just hope he likes the cap..i think my feelings for him are getting stronger and stronger each day..im missing him already..ZzZzZz................
posted @ 11:56 PM
Today it was so hazzy that i got a real bad headache.Today i was supposed to go for a high tea buffet with my cousin but it was fully booked because i did not make a reservation early.i was too busy.However,i still met up with my dearest cousin.hehe..i really enjoy hanging out with her.Despite our age gap is 12 years apart, we still got lots of things to talk about.By the way,she doesnt looks like her age too,she always look younger then she is while i am always mistaken for being older.duh!Forget it,look matured isnt a bad thing what.haha.I like sharing with her my life stories, she always has lots of advices and predictions to give me.Maybe she got too much of experiences la.her ex-bfs are infinity...haha.I think through out these few years, she is my only closest relative,im even closer to her than my brother.I used to have many close cousins but due to family conflicts,we dirfted apart.sigh..its ok..i should be thankful that at least i still have her.hehe,she will always be my favourite cousin!!!"Blood is thicker than water."That's what my third aunt used to say but they didnt seems to put this quote to practice...
After that dear came to look for me and my mummy encouraged him not to get a motorbike.I know he loves it a lot but im getting worry for him.I really scared something might happen to him..CHOY CHOY!!i better dont say anything,*touchwood touchwood*..Just pray that he will be safe and sound whenever he is on the road.hehe but actually sitting on a bike is quite cool too..i cant wait to sit and feel the breeze sweep on my face...alright,time for bed,good night people...Oh yesh..im so in love with this current song in my blog now..The first time i heard it,i thought of dear and i.The lyrics of this song is so meaningful unlike those nice songs which lyrics are all break-ups.i hope dear will hear this song...hehe
posted @ 11:40 PM
DA JIA HAO!!!haha.Wo de xin qing hao duo le wor.A few days back i was so affected by my job that i was feeling extremely down.However after dear came to accompany and comfort me, i felt much better.Thank you.=) Not forgetting my hao jie mei,ah tal.Thanks for being there when i need someone and helped me when im troubled.When i get my pay,i shall treat you to your favourite pepper lunch k?haa.Wonder how is she and her kang kang le...must be enjoying their honeymoon..keke..
Yesterday,while having break i went to shop around and i decided to do a keychain for dear and i because our keychains were spoiled.However,after doing his,i realised i got not enough money left to do mine so i just did his.After giving it to him,he realised i dont have and today he went to do one for me too so now both of us has one each.haha mine was much more expensive than his coz my name is super long.haha dont blame me blame my mummy for giving me such long name.Also,we did for his sister too coz it is her birthday today.He waited for 4 hours for me to knock off from work.so sweet right?keke.After work,he straight away brought me to metro to buy me a Guess wallet.He knew i wanted something from Guess and he bought it for me.Thank you dear.Sorry ,i think you had spent a lot on me.I promise i'll try to change my bad splurging habit.We also bought an Adidas shirt together.So nice!!Its gold and black.My fav colour!Hehe.
oh ya,i went along with his family for a buffet dinner at yuki yaki.It's really nice of his family to invite me.He has a smiley father,sweet-loving mother and adorable sister.By the way,the dinner was great.Ate many salmons today,dear and his mum kept piling my plate with food.Feeling so fat now or rather i never feel thin a single day,thats what my mum said.haha.hmm..it seems like i had been eating really well this few months and i felt kinda bad that my mum cant seems to enjoy such meal.I promise once i get my pay,i must bring her to somewhere nice for dinner.
ok,i shall end my grandma story here.Tml is finally another off day.Study hard for those that are starting school tommorow.Also,i wanna thanks dear for doting me a lot.I love u...
posted @ 10:27 PM
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It was za and liyana bday celebration today.Tal and i went to buy their gifts before meeting them for dinner.Hope they love the presents we bought.Met at pizza hut and as usual im broke again.SIAN!sigh,today's entry will be short and simple because im not in the mood today.Got complaint by a customer yesterday and was nagged by my mum just now.Feeling very blueeee now.However,meeting up with them was fun.Did some cam whoring in the toliet and laughed till the cleaner seems abit pissed off.haizz WTF,shall end here..im sad,im moody and i just dont feel like talking to anyone now...nights..:`(
ps.how i wish he is by my side comforting me till i fall asleep...
posted @ 12:37 AM
This is dear and i...hehe love this neoprint a lot!!!
posted @ 10:54 AM
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HI im back!I had a great time yesterday and today.Ok,i shall say what i did yesterday.I ended work early and my dearest ah tal came to look for me and accompanied me to go to chomp chomp to meet the rest.Thanks my ah tal!hee.Hmm..frankly speaking i feel that ah tal changed a lot and of course change for the better.She used to keep to herself a lot and spoke really little but now she has open u to me about almost everything and she was even so concerned for me when i told her about my problems.I felt really touched!Whenever i have problems or great news to share,its always Angel that i'll call out to but now i'll also tell ah tal.I thanks God for these two beautiful angels...hee..
ok back to our chomp chomp dinner.Not many people went because of work and stuffs.So there were only ah tal,mui,juan and geraldine.We had a hearty meal,seafoods and chicken wings are simply heavenly!haa.I miss ah juan a lot.I hope God will bless her and give her strength in whatever she does.Surviving on herself without the help of her parents make me respect her.I think if my mummy is not around,i will be dead..im not as fillial and sensible as her.Anyway im glad we had this small gathering,its so nice catching up with them.After that, dear dad longbang us to j8 to catch a movie.dear was late thats why he cnt join us for dinner.Hehe.dear's papa really damm kind..in fact the whole family is kind la!haa!we watched me,you and molly.its funny and moving.oh ya,yesterday i wore a blouse that i bought at bugis a few days ago and what happen was ah mui also bought exactly the identical one!I cant believe we always eye on the same thing!!!haha,no wonder we are BEST friends!hee.Then on the way back on the taxi,mui,juan and i talked.haha i really miss those times when the 3 of us are together.we always break into a loud laughter whenever we talk.Worst still,the 3 of us laugh really loud and imagine 3 kind of laughter remix together,wahh..hahaha..sigh...times passes so quickly..
Today was also a nice Sunday.I had an enjoyable date with dear today.His papa bought for him N73 phone today,my dream phone!!So xian mu.haha.After accompaning him to buy his phone,we went to bugis for shopping.Dear bought me a t-shirt and belt.Thanks my love!I'll treasure whatever you bought for me!I think today seems to be our first date together.Previously,it was just either spending the time doing nothing much or out with friends together while today its just the 2 of us.=)i hope there will be more to come.Then he accompanied me to eat dinner.haha i wanted to eat korean ginseng soup so much and i had my full today le,feel so happy!keke.omg i feel like drinking the soup again..ok i got to sleep for now..nights..loving every single one of u!!!
posted @ 10:32 PM
Good evening!Though today was a tring day,i had lots of fun!hehe.By the way i only slept for 5 hours last night because i was thinking of what to write in my qin shu for an an.Die already,my inspiration is failing me or rather failing my creativity.Im always so creative in deciding what to do as a gift for people.I took so long to think.Then next morning after dolling up,i went straight to ah tal's house.Guess why i went her house so early...its because we are planning to bake something for our sweethearts!hehe.its all my bright idea.
Actually,i thought of buying something for an an after i get my tuition pay but i walked causeway point up and down and i still cant find any nice gift.Actually i wanted to give him a gift not because there is an occasion or what,its just that i feel like giving.haha.ok back to ah tal house,then we started doing the oatmeal chocalate chip cookies first followed by the blueberry muffin.As we were busy doing,we chatted as well.We shared about one another requirements in a relationship and what our sweetheart does that make us go ga ga over them.haha,i really enjoyed the baking session with her.Adores her lots!By the way,our cookies and muffins taste superb...hehe.really hope both of our bfs love it.
After that i did the washing,so ke lian right..this ah tal lor i know she hates washing so i got to wash but its ok,im training to be a good housewife!haa!But when i really becomes one,i make sure my husband do the washing while i cook.ha ha ha!!!After we were done with the packaging, she accompanied me to an an's house to put the things there.I really dont know where to put lor,in the end i put at the shoe rack there.hai yo but its not obvious,i wonder an an saw it already anot..now its 9.20..waiting for his call.I bluffed him that i want the shoe rack and asked him to look for it.haha so funny!
Then around 12,crystal went to meet her friend and i went to meet my cousin,karen.I miss her so much!hehe.we went shopping around bugis and gosh i saw so many beautiful clothes..this round the clothes are all very pretty.Im tempted to buy everything le!!!CANNOT ARHH!!!anyway im glad to meet up with her today,we got lots of things to update one another.next week we are going for a high tea buffet..yahooooo..
thought of posting the pictures we took while making the cookies but blogger got sth wrong,sigh..post it some other days..k i got to sleep,tml its back to work..nights...
posted @ 9:11 PM
Just now i nearly ended up in a heated argument with my mummy.Sometimes she just dont understands me enough.She said she just dont get it where had my allowance gone to.Mum,i need to pay 200 for my braces,70 for my insurance and 52 for my bus concession.It is over my allowance already.Though sometimes when i have extra,i will spent,it is not wrong what!Im still a teenager and it is easy for me to eye for all sort of things.Dont tell me that i cant spend on anything???I already tired to scrimp on what i eat,sometimes i just buy a 1.50 sandwich to fill my stomach up and wait for work to end and rush home to eat.Isnt it enough?Im so fed up!Second thing that made me flared up was she think im some kind of a human machine or what.After work,i rushed home to eat my dinner before giving tuition.I tried to eat as fast as i could already yet she said ''the poor boy wants to sleep already,you still dont want to leave arhh''the poor boy,poooor boy...yes im paid to teach but im also a human being,i should be the poor gal instead.cant i just eat my meal peacefully..im drained..really drained..i just hope the money will drop from the sky..i cant believed im crying over this.I dont want to owe money from anyone anymore.I must not give up,its just 3 weeks left and im back to school.I promised when im back to school,my main focus will be on my studies.The first sem result was really sucks,throw million of rotten eggs also not enough.sigh...now the only thing that can make me happy is my friends and boyfriend.Just seeing them alone can make me on cloud nines.Tommorow is my off day,im meeting ah tal and karen!I cant wait for the next day to arrive...i miss an an dearly..:`( nights.........
posted @ 10:18 PM
HAPPY 1 MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!!haha.ya i know its only a month la but im glad we have come this far.I really thanks my dearest Guo an for treating me like a princess,giving me all the love and care i need.How i wish we will last till forever...I love u!
Yesterday was my off day and i went to celebrate Jlai's birthday with the rest of them.We went to arab street for an arabian dinner.what a unique and different kind of dining.It was memorable because it was unlike the usual dining at cafes and etc..Good recommemdation by Nadia!hehe.i had crispy chicken with mushroom sauce,it was yum yum!hehe.im so happy to see my classmates after so long.too bad ms tan wan teng cannot come if not it will be more fun.hahaha.oh ya,shawna is attached too!im so happy for her!!congrats!it was so surprising,a month ago,she whined and said her love is always one sided but now BOMB,she has a CUTE boyfriend.hehe.actually i love my friends to have bf when im having one too coz if i have any problem,telling people whom are in a relationship will understand u better.hehe.Then after dinner,an an drove his dad's car to find me.he is so noob with bugis street that his good friend jerry had to accompany him and lead him the way.haha.oh ya,im glad jerry and helen are back together though im not that close with them.They seems really loving and serious about each other.Anyway,seeing an an yesterday made me a happy gal!keke.i like him driving me around while holding my hands.like so sweet lor..sighh..5 more days and i cant see him again..so sad..
by the way,my ah tal seems like she has found her mr right and im super happy for her..i also hope she will be as happy and xin fu as me..wish her all the best.alright i got to sleep.good night!
posted @ 11:14 PM