In dear papa car..so comfy!!hehe..
Zaza's baby sister..damm cute!!!
The old us..reminising the old times we had together..
I had an enjoyable weekend yet feeling blue at the same time.During Saturday, i went back to school for a make-up lesson.After lesson,i went with my butch of classmates to TM for lunch.I brought them to see my pretty ah mui.I wanted my best friend to know my good friends as well like ting ting.The minute they saw her,they all said we looked alike.Hmmm..Maybe since sec sch days,we had been seeing each other almost everyday thats why there are some similarities to our posture and the way we speak.Then after lunch,i went to my big aunt's house to visit both her and my brother.I wanted to see how he was doing.He was sick for 2 weeks.I just felt sorry for him.Sometimes i just think life is so unfair.He did so much for the family and since young he has been a good and sensible boy but why did his life seems so wreakless now?I really love my brother a lot and i hope his life will change for a better.Anyway,im glad he is staying with my aunt now,at least there is someone to look after him.
After that, dear came to fetch me and accompanied me to church.During mass, i had so much to pray for and so much of forgiveness to seek from God.Then,after mass ended we went to meet Jerry and Helen for dinner at Swensen.I love the tuna salad,its so healthy and yummy.Then,we decided to end our day at a stroll by the beach.Dear and i had a heart to heart talk by the beach.I like the ambience and atmosphere there,making me feel really peaceful and free of worries.Im so thankful for having him as my boyfriend, he is always there for me rain or shine.Glad to have him in my life now...
However,when i reached home.Mummy came to my room and told me that we could only rent a 1 room flat.I broke down and cried.1 room flat???!Which means there will be no room for me and maybe no air con for me as well.I admit from young im being pampered by my parents, though im not living in a big bungalow houses but the average yet comfortable house gave me the family warm and love that i need.Now,asking me to stay in such place makes me really difficult to accept the fact in such a short period of time.I need time to adapt to a new enviroment and i need time to accept this drastic change.Its so much for me.I coped myself in the room and cried for the whole day.I know there is no point crying but im sad and thats how i express my feelings.The fact of moving into a small pathetic house bothers me but the most saddening part is i may not have a chance to see my dad anymore.I wanted so much to talk to him,i wanted to tell him that i still loves him but...it seems totally pointless now.Today i saw karen's dad and he resembles my dad ,maybe its because both are peranakans and english-speaking.When i heard karen and her dad happily having small arguments about food and teasing at one another,it makes me miss my dad a lot a lot.I really feel so empty inside.I just knew that all i have to do now is to work extra hard financially and studies to help out my mum.I suddenly felt pressurised and life seems so meaningless to me now...
Anyway i shall post some pictures i took with dear last weekend and the hari raya visit at ah za's house..
posted @ 10:45 PM