Jojo feels happier each day.Today i went to meet my dad.Before that i had a French test.It was neither simple nor difficult.Just hope i can pass.Back to the meeting with my dad,ya at first i was afraid i had nothing to talk to my dad but the thankfully it didnt turn out this way.We actually talked like how we used to speak in the past.I tell him all my stories from head to tail and he pass me some comments or advices if needed.I feel somehow relieved because i can finally pour everything out of my chest that i had been wanting to let my dad knows or listens.Through out my whole life, my dad has always been the best confidant.hehe.I had also found out something that my dad has kept from me when i was in pri and sec school.He actually came to my school for a spot check every month.OMG!No wonder he seems to know my progression in school.The truth was revealed because he came to my school so often that the girls in my school actually remembered him and called out to him when they saw him on the streets.haha.My daddy really do cares about me.He still puts a photo of me in his wallet.I guess i had hurted him really deeply.Im so sorry daddy.
Surprisingly when we talked,he asked me about an an.My dad were full of praises for him.I mean i have not even officially introduced anan to him yet my dad can see that he is a nice boy.He kept asking me about his family,studies and blah blah blah..I think parents can really see through a person clearly,uh but it's still too early to comment on anything la,maybe things might change in the future.Hello,im only 18,i still have a long road ahead of me.haha.But!!!...for now, im extremely 100% sure anan is truefully good to me and everyone can see that.=)
I hope my pay will not delay again.I got lots of things to get.
-a white Bebe off-shoulder(been eyeing on it 4 damm long!)
-a pair of black m(phosis slips-on
-a white hangbag for outing...[thats all for my shopping,cant imagine i only want to get 3 things.haha]
-treat an an to Gelare
-buy little x'mas pressies for my loved ones esp my an an
-give mummy some money(promise i must!)
I miss these following people badly.
Desiree AI REN(e doggy made me miss her so much),my ah mui(so much things to share with her),tal tal(wanna hear her love stories),za za....
posted @ 11:17 PM
On Friday, my dad gave me a call and when i talked to him, i nearly cried but i controlled my tears. Then yesterday i bumped into him at compass point. Seeing my dad made me really happy but i somehow felt that we had became distant.I cant seems to get back to the time whereby i am able to speak openly to him,everything seems so formal now.I tried to avoid looking into my dad's eyes because i knew if i did,i will cry again.Anyway,everything has been really smooth for me,nothing bad happened.Now mummy and i just lead our own life.She cooks for me while i washes the plates, she irons and hangs my clothes while i vaccums and mops the floors.How i really wish this house will be ours forever.
Money can really determines one's happiness. Yesterday, i went for a movie with an an then after that we went for some window shopping but after walking around,i became extremely moody and listless.Before that, an an was also feeling moody.I was fraustrated of myself,i was thinking why i will end up in this kind of situation whereby im so poor till my wallet only left a few coins and why must i scrimp whenever i had the money.Seriously, i avoid going out now because i knew if i see something i like and i cant buy, i will feel really damm down.i know im making it sounds like im making a mountain out of a molehill but shopping has always been my love.Imagine the feeling of losing a love one.Sigh.I think im really too pampered.My parents used to get what i want and now when they cant provide me, i felt lost.Because of this matter,i PMSed and i knew anan was tolerating me but he never once tried to lose his temper on me.=)And this is one point that makes me love him most.Then i apologised but he told me he understands and before that an an was also moody too because of this.The funny thing is when im happy,he was moody and the next moment when im moody he was happy so we took turns to pacify one another.haha zhen you mo qi.Money, money, money is the root of all evil...
Sian,tutorials not done and projects are suffocating me.Exams are nearing too.Damm shit!i hate the word "study"!And now,back to my project!
posted @ 5:37 PM
Guess what?Im had been laughing and smiling the whole day.It feels so good to be happy!I promise i would not let my family matters to affect me already.Blood is thicker than water??BULLSHIT!Now i just wanna love myself more than anyone do.Even if im sad, i must not show it out.I must not fall ANYMORE!!its enough!
Alright, the first thing that cheer me up is my beloved classmates.They are so f*cking Sweetttt lahhh!!!They actually chipped in money and bought for me a box of chocalates.They even choosed my favourite white and milk chocalates and gave me a card,it wrote:"hey girl, we noe you're goin thru a difficult period bt we wan u to noe tat we r rite behind u all the way."I was so touched then.I still thought of skipping school today but now im really lovin school.Thank you for all the encouragement!!!wan ting,izyan,jlai,nadia,wanjun and lots more..i luv ya all...haha
Second thing was dear and i went to watch "step up".i had been longing to watch this movie.Really thumbs up for this movie!I love the blending of hip hop and ballet dance..so cool!Whatever i want to see or do,an an is always there to grant my wish,my fairygodfather.haha!He even bought for me something sexy,uh uh,shall not reveal it here,its a secret between us.Hehe.I love EE GUO AN!
Lastly,i got into the course i want.General business!!!yoohoo..i must get into tourism,i had already miss a chance and im not gonna miss it again.Shit,its pretty late and i have yet to sleep.Tutorials are not done but i promise to do it tml before i head for school.okay,i gonna ciao.Nights!
posted @ 12:52 AM
I miss an an a lot.I wonder if i can get to see him today.i had not seen him for just a day yet im missing him so much already.Normally it takes me a few days or more for me to miss him but now i misses him till i can imagine him sitting beside me.I skipped school today.Didnt had the mood to study.I just feel like staying at home alone watching tv and laughing to myself.The house seems quieter and empty now...im so unuse to it but i promise i will get use to it soon!Today i done a little housework as well.No more daddy around so i gonna help my mummy to lighten her burden alittle.Now i get to really experience the life of an only child and a child with a single parent.It doesnt feels good but i still gotta accept it.This is fated and i cant change it.Alright, time for bed,Au revoir!=)
posted @ 9:24 PM
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I wonder if it is coincidental or the telepathy that caused the 4 of us to wear spectacles yesterday..:).jpg)
It's the second day of my new life.Yesterday was the first day and i managed to pull through the day with the accompanying of my boyfriend and friends.During that treadful night, i was awaken by my elder brother who was throwing things around the house and making noise as he does not knew that his things had moved and he was supposed to shift to my aunt's place.His frightful voice made me weeped the whole night.I smsed Angel hoping she could pop by my place and accompany me for the night but unfortunately she wasnt feeling well.However,the next morning she came to my house and brought me lunch.She even called Crystal and Syaza along.When i knew that they are coming, i felt really happy because i had my loved ones to accompany me for the day.Sadly, the minute they came i broke down and cried again because i had a bad quarral with my second brother over the phone.My heart sank again.The trauma never seems to end.But with Angel around, she still managed to put a smile on my face.I just feel so safe with my three bestest friends.We bought practically all the junk food up to my house and ate while watching TV.After that Guo an came to join us.At that moment, i just felt so lucky to have them by my side,a caring boyfriend and 3 sweetest friends.Even when they had lefted, Angel called me profusely just to ask if i had taken my dinner.Such friends are close to extinction.
Then after much persuasion by dear, i decided to go to his house for dinner.When I cried and told him that i cant experience fatherly love anymore,he embraced me and told me that he can give me both boyfriend and fatherly love as well.Though it sounds so silly but it really melts my heart.He makes me feel loved all the time.Sometimes, i felt that its really a wrong time for me to have a boyfriend now because i seems like a burden to them.I throw tantrum unnecessarily and im a crybaby all the time.Sigh.
Anyway, i just wish to thank them for being around and I will learn to be strong and be the cheerful Josephine everyone used to know....
posted @ 6:47 PM
"Try to remember" is the song daddy teaches me to sing....jpg)
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My daddy has left.I have another new adjustment to make.Im hurt and seriously hurt.
Daddy used to wait for me if i ever return home late,
daddy and i used to cook porridge together,
daddy and i used to watch da chang jin together,
daddy used to wash my dishes without fail,
daddy used to give me advices and encouragement whenever i faces problem, daddy used to scratch my back before i go to bed,
daddy used to compliment how pretty i am,
daddy used to tell me bibles stories,
daddy daddy daddy why must you leave me?
From tommorow onwards, i got to start living a life without a dad by my side.Im feeling so devastated now.I got no mood for anything.I really regretted not talking to my dad, i realised i had hurted him so much and myself.If a packet of char kueh tiao could make him happy,i hope a 100 packet of it could bring him back.
i want a father, a mother and a brother staying happily together...
posted @ 10:05 PM
All my good friends,presenting syaza,crystal,siew juan,joseph,guo an and tian seng..=)
The 3 machoS..joseph looked so buey song sia..haha
finally joseph is smiling..
the glitzZz?...missing another person,ah mui where are you??:(
libra,sagi and leo..the 3 signs which friendships are linked!!
my childhood friend and family andddd with my act cute mum..she's afraid of camera!!haha
so poor thing,eat leftovers coz come late..haha.
ah za is promoting H2O..
oOoO..sAyang SAyang...
lets smooch!!!!
Gal friends of mine!!!~~
kawaii neh!!!dear n i cam whoring along the corridor..
S.H.E...errr..no..should be S.J.C...HAHAHA
knew each other since birth..but it turn out to be one super clever and one super stupid...and the stupid one is me but she still gt me "jie"..haha so sweet..
lovely threesome..
my pretty and greedy best friend..always binge on my food!!!haha
Im very happy!Thank you all for fufilling my wish of having a little celebration at my house.Though some of you cant make it, im still glad that most of you still came.Thanks dear for helping me and my mum out by clearing the dishes and capturing for these beautiful memories.haha.Thanks ah tal for coming down straight after school and help me out with the preparation.Also,the person that i wanna show my outmost gratidude is my dearest mum.She helped me with this gathering, helping me to buy and cook the stuffs for my friends.Even though we are already so down,she still does all that she can to fufill my this last wish.I really appreciated it a lot.Without my mum, i really dont know what kind of Josephine will i turn out to be.The love that she gave me is beyond measure. 世上只有妈妈好 有妈的孩子像块宝 投进妈妈的怀抱 幸福享不了...
It wasnt a big feast so my mum just prepared some spagetti and finger food.Luckily there wasnt any leftovers because my childhood friend helped me to finish it all up..haha!Actually i wanted this gathering is because i wanted all my good friends to spend this last moment with me here.hehe.however im so sad that ah mui cannot make it,she was so ill suddenly.It seems so incomplete without her, our kai xin guo.Anyway im glad gabriel did turn up=) Afterall he also did contributed to part of my life journey..hehe.I really love all my friends.I really hope even if i had shifted to somewhere far away from them, we will not be distant or they wont forget that they know a Josephine...sigh..ok i shall end here..thanks once again!
posted @ 1:07 PM
Im back.School is boring and i had missed a number of lectures already.Shit!My motivation level is dropping again.Even when im in school,my mind is not with the teacher but with someone else...haha.I always try to remember what i had spoken with an an in sec school times and what he did,like the way he walked into the parade square with his pants almost dropping,adjusting his earstick in his enlarged earhole and reading monotonously on a paragraph of comprehension when asked to do so by our english teacher.It was pretty hard remembering coz at that time i wasnt attracted to him and vice versa.But whenever i remembered something, i will sha xiao coz those little things that he did seems so ke ai to me now.I think my liking for him has grown stronger and stronger that i misses him now.The thought of being single no longer exists in my mind coz he makes me believe that being in love can be as fufilling and fun.一个人也需自由,两个人而感动,大过天空,喜怒哀乐,统统拥有,不让你恨留I love you!Je suis amourese!
posted @ 8:41 PM
she cute little juan juan..keke..
ah juan and i at bugis..
ignore the background..just focus on me!!!haha
oooo..my yummy salmon pepper lunch..all thanks to dear who brought me to eat..had been craving for it for a long time..
my mum n i were trying to capture one another..she hao lian liao..coz got camera phone already..
im holding on to our all time favourite"ice mocha"..yum yum
this guy is sean..the guy who is crazy over nike shoess!!
ah huh!the this here is call JLAI!!!!the one that an lian my wan ting!!!hahaha
wahh so fierce for what wor??wanna fight??
my anan looks happy leaning on me..
after cutting my frindge for free..thanks to dear..haha
"you are on candid camera"haha..took dear secretly..look like pig..hahaha
with bday gal
with ting dear
with izy sayang..
Wonder why my face is so white!
I shall post some pictures that i took over the week.
posted @ 10:02 PM
Oh my God!I puked in the middle of the night for just half(or rather just a few mouthful) bottle of carlsberg.I cant believed im such a weak drinker.Just a few sips and i felt my body getting warmer and warmer and head started spinning.It really doesnt feels good after puking.Till now im still having a slight hangover.oh dear,i must learn how to drink!!!Well, i went to one of the club at clark quey with Karen after dining at an american restuarant.The music were great.Gosh, and the portions of the food are damm huge,even when i shared it with Karen,i still felt damm full.Its my first time eating blue chesse and it tasted so horrible but the mussels were lovely.I love good food!It's always my cousin that brought me to such places to dine and she can really teaches me to enjoy life to the fullest.OoO..I love hanging out with my coussiieee!!!She is also the only relative that encouraged me to pursue my aspiration.I can still remember this sentence that she told me yesterday"you must always put yourself infront of others then your life will be happy!" it's so true la,why must i think of others.Its my own life, i decides for myself.=) No ones gonna restrict me!!!
oh ya,before meeting my cousie,i actually went for a window shopping with siew juan.She seems to change quite abit.she's not as cheerful and chirpy as before.I guess she is still struggling hard to adapt to an independent life.Sometimes,i just feel that im quite fortunate,although i dont have a lot of allowances but at least i still have unlike her.hmm..May God bless her.Yesterday i really controlled myself from spending except from spending on ai ren's belated gift.This is such a sucky feeling...going out yet not buying anything for myself.I saw a few tops i like very much but..none is in my closet..sigh!alright shall not whine anymore,back to my bed.Ciaos!
posted @ 11:17 AM
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come come ah ting,let me give u a kiss!.jpg)
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my 2 beloveds....jpg)
the best pic of all!my favourite!hehe
I love school days now though i still dread attending lectures the whole day long.I love my polymates too!Lately, ah ting,Izyan and I have been hanging out together a lot.I guess both of them are my closest friends in school.There are so much to talk about when im with them.Though ah ting seems small in size, she's actually like my da jie jie whom helped me a lot in my studies and gave me advices when im upsat.While Izy shares a lot of similarities with me and she really understands me well.Though its just the starting of 2nd sem, it seems to me that we are going to part soon.We are going to choose our diploma soon and all of us have different interest so i bet we wont be in the same class anymore.Sigh..however, they will always be save in ah jose's "memory card" and it will be inerasable.haha.This whole week,we done a lot of cam-whoring.Everyday take and take..so zhi lian..haha ok i shall upload some of it..=)
posted @ 10:06 PM
MU HA HA HA!Hey people,please call me the BEST TEACHER!!!Say it loud, B-E-S-T T-E-A-C-H-E-R!!!!!!!Im in such a high spirit when my mum told me that my student actually has a Distinction for Maths and B for English.English has always been his weakest subject but he did it!Oh mine!but sadly his chinese fail and i doesnt know why.His parents and i always have high confidence in his Chinese but he actually flunked it.I think its partly my fault too,i focused too much on the other 2 weakest subject and neglected his best one.Anyway im glad that overall he did well.Im a happy teacher!So anyone wanna hire me?fees are negotiable.hahaha..
There will be a secondary school classmate gathering next week.I hope that my last celebration at Sengkang will be a memorable and splendid moment for me.I thank you God for giving me such fabulous butch of classmates whom i spent my teenage years with.You guys rocks!
Ps.Ah mui, good luck for your 'O's paper tml.Do well huh!Give me at least a B3!!
posted @ 10:23 PM
看着瞬间
别让它再流浪
从前我太是因悲伤
你的出现在无意中
却深深撼动我
一起走着没说什么
心是满足的
这个瞬间随时都会崩塌
我没有其他的愿望
假如明天将消失了
趁现在我爱着
只想记得
被你抱着温柔的感受
Love is beautiful
So beautiful
我失去过
更珍惜拥有
多庆幸我是我
被你疼爱的我
紧紧牵住的手
不要放手
永远守护我
Love is beautiful
So beautiful
我很快乐
你会了解我
我不会再哭泣
是因为我相信
我们勇敢地爱着
每秒钟都能证明一生的美丽
At first, i dont really fancy this song but when dear started singing it over and over again, i think it's actually quite nice.I like the meaning to the song too.I just feel so xin fu after hearing it,从前我太是因悲伤,你的出现在无意中却深深撼动我...it actually meant that in the past im always miserable but your presence suddenly changed everything.Yes and thats him,my mr Ee Guo An..=) Though yesterday was another ordinary Sunday, he brought me to eat my favourite zhi ma hu and cooked the yummy korean noodles for me.It must be a blessing from God to offer me an almost 100% bf.I love you!Its such a nice feeling being in love coz Love is beautiful!haha..
posted @ 10:41 PM
A bday kiss for the bday gal!
5 gals crazily enjoyed the cam-whoring session..
Babes of 1b03..haha
Idiots of 1b03..hahaha
orhh..what a sweet bday gal...
waiting for their food to be served
the yummy cake
my pretty ting and i..
Yesterday after lesson, the 11 of us went to far east to celebrate Nadz's birthday.We went to have ramen and the service is damm horrible.As all of us were broke, we only bought a slice of blueberry chessecake for her.After lunch,we went to walk around.It is really nice having this butch of crazy poly mates.I love em!hehe.Anyway happy birthday nadia!!!Hope she really enjoys this day with us.Then after town, i went to meet ah mui and ah tal.Chatted a lot of stuffs and as usual Angel's jokes never fail to crack us up.I love em too..haha.
posted @ 8:49 AM
