Well, im back to blog again despite feeling extremely exhuasted.This whole week were packed with lectures and tutorials.I have been really dilligent lately,doing my tutorials regularly and trying REALLY hard to listen attentively to whatever the teachers had said.This reminds me of the old kiasu,dilligent Josephine.I wonder what special power injected into me which gave me all the motivation and will to study like hell.I need this special power again!Im getting lazier and lazier each day.I realised that special power lefted me when my family broke up.I studied hard because i knew when i had remarkable results,there will be a chance for me to boast myself infront of my parents and also to earn that proud grin on their face.It felt so worthwhile when the two most important people in my life smiled at one another and gave me a pat on my shoulder.But now, it seems like the both of them are in their own world, for which its makes me extremely demotivated.Well,by right they should not be the one that i should be studying for,i should be doing it for myself, my future.Maybe if the next time when i begin to lose track in my motivation again, i will have to think of my future and my mum.I know i know,the recent entries were all boring because it's all about my family and i but pardon me,i really needs to pour out everything that has been bothering me.I dont feel good keeping it inside.By the way, I really appreciate those who have been constantly worrying and concerning for me.Merci!Especially my dearest boyfriend.He simply replaced the love i had been yearning for.He never fails to provide me with what i want.People said you will experience all of these because you are still in the honeymoon period but i believe his shower of love will not end in a month or two but will goes on and on."When a man loves a woman...."
posted @ 9:40 PM