Today is the 31st of December which meant tomorrow is the NEW YEAR of 2007.Whao!That's fast.Supposed to countdown today but the pathetic me just has to be sick on this perfect day.Sigh.
Yesterday,i returned home early from work because i was sneezing the whole day.I cant take it so i went back first.Thanks dear for fetching me back home though i kept insisting i dont want you to.Also thanks ah mui for taking the trouble to call the company for me and replacing me if not i had to work today le.Now,my nose is blocked.I cant smell what im eating.Sigh.
So,2007 is approaching.What resolution should i make?Shedding some weight?studying hard?Sigh again,bullshit stuffs.Always never make it,so demoralised.School is opening soon too,oh dear im bound to fail Bus stats..sob sob.
alright,shall end here.bye!
Oh before i end,HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!=)
posted @ 12:05 PM
2 couples!
The girls of the day!
Dear can u dont be so extra???haha..no la no la muacks!
Alright alright,peck u on the cheek for the nice gift...
Arn't we cute?
Kissing my gift..hehe.
His gift,a nike T-shirt and a Video CD which i had created.
The pretty Precious moment glass ball that dear gave.
Some pictures of Christmas eve's and Christmas day...
posted @ 5:00 PM
Merry christmas everyone!!! Christmas has finally arrived and i realised my blog is soon to be a year old already.Blogging never seems bored to me at all, it kept all the little stories of my rollercoaster life.Soon,it will be 2007. Regarding my previous entry about how dissapointed i am towards him,i wanna apologise.Very sorry my dear!Im really an irgnorance and silly girlfriend.The dinner and gift are equavilent to your hard work for 3 days.Sigh...Instead of being considerate,i gave you a cold shoulder and even spoke to you in an unfriendly tone.Orhh man...im such a detestable gf!The surprise you gave me made me guilty straight away and of course im also deeply touched as well.I really love the glassball that comes with the melody.Thank you very much for every single thing that u had done for me.I can't live without you too... Well, he actually came to look for me after work yesterday and brought me to pasir ris fisherman village for dinner.Came to think about it,it was the first surprise he ever gave to me.haha i bet it must be my repititive whines that caused him to do all this for me.Anyway i really appreicate it a lot!Then we went to midnight mass together with my parents.Glad dear went to a catholic primary school in the past because at least he knew the prayers and roughly knew some of the rituals that we go through.I hope to walk the aisle with him hand in hand one day....haha so romantic can... Then on x'mas day,we met up with our friends for a karokae session.We exchanged gifts with one another.Coincidentally i took crystal's and she took mine.I got a really cute handphone stand from her.Thanks!By the way im so glad that meng kang came.At least we get to better know him better cause he is my best friend's boyfriend and we ought to know him.haha.Nice chap and great vocal he has.haha.But my an an also bu lai ma..he sings "forever love" is ichiban de wor...hahaha...Mui and i also exchange gifts with one another.She bought me my favourite body shop lotion which i had been longing for.She is really my bestie..she knows me best.Juanie also gave me a card which written all her sincerity down,im deeply touched.Ai yo..im just so fortunate to have so many great friends around me.angel,crystal,siew juan,syaza....and so many other more...even an an,my bestest friend who is always there for me..i LOVE u all very very much...though x'mas this year is not spend with my family,im contented because u all made my world colourful..haha.. Daddy,mummy and kor kor...i really miss you all...as a family... Tml is time to catch up with my projects..byebye..
posted @ 2:06 AM
Why oH Why??? by Juwita Suwito ps.very meaningful and melodious song...but sadly i cant find the link to put in my blog...:(
The moments I can’t pretend
The ‘sorry’s I should have sent
The thought of you being in despair tears my heart out right away
I just wasn’t prepared
Imperfection ? that’s what I am
Confusion just took its stand
I guess that I shouldn’t pretend to love you anyway
I won’t give up again
So tell me why oh why
Should there be a reason to love
Why oh why…
I don’t need another
I want nothing else but being with you
And with you I know why
The one thing I’ll take with me
The eyes that smile so tenderly
Every time I think about you
You make everything seem right
You make wishes come true
If only I knew what you needed was some love
I could have given you the best that you deserve
There's no one else I'd rather share my life than with you
Think of what's between us...
And love will help to guide us...
posted @ 12:37 AM
Finally im back to work for Sony.Work was fine,the staffs were nice and approachable.But my feets were hurt because of the newly bought heels.
Initially,i was anticipating to knock off from work because i finally could meet him to his family's chalet.but...a call came and...hmmm..
Im trying hard to be understanding but i just cant feel his presence anymore.it seems like dissapointment always come after another.
so i went back myself,walking along the streets of orchard road and admiring the christmas lights all by myself.At that moment,i felt a sense of loneliness.I missed my dad and brother.So i decided to go to my uncle's x'mas party despite the strong disapproval from my mum.I really hate to lie to my mum and i really hate to be acting sneakily just to hide it from her.WHY??!!why must she refrain me from seeing my relatives.I feel really miserable.Being able to see my uncle and family just now made me really very happy.My mum only cares about protecting herself from being hurt and she doesnt think of me.
I need a shoulder to lie on but the one i really want to lie on is..i don't know...
i feel so dumb shedding tears just because of this.I dont want to depend on anyone now..the only person i want to love now is MYSELF...
ps.im sorry if my entries recently are all distraught,i dont wish to be down either...
posted @ 11:48 PM
=((
I really don't know what's wrong with me.I know he works is to earn extra money but im just not understanding enough.I'm not angry,just feeling sad that he cant be my side as much as he used to.I also dont know why will i react like that.It doesnt seems to be like me,im not like that in the past.Im known for being understanding but why?Crystal said the reason is i had loved him too deeply already.Sigh.I wonder if it's a good or bad sign...
I rather he dont buy or pay for me anything so at least he can has more money for himself and more time for me...Seeing him working so hard make my heart aches too.
Im sorry for not being an understanding gf..
i think i shall turn in early tonight so i wont miss him so much..good night!
posted @ 8:17 PM
I MISSES DEAR!!!
I yearn for his hugs,his kisses or just him holding my hands...=(
posted @ 1:22 PM
One word to describe today's mood,S-H-I-O-K-KKKK!!!
Supposingly,ah cheong was to treat us lunch but he was sick.Don't know he pretend or what but anyway i enjoyed my day with mui today!
It has been months since i had shopped with ah mui.It's so fun can.We are such bestie that everywhere we go,people mistook us for sisters and we even eyed on the same stuffs.So in the end,we bought a similar blouse and necklace.muhaha!
Treated her japanese lunch at Cine,cheap and nice,must try.Then met my dad in the late afternoon and he bought me my x'mas present.
Very very happy today bcos i had done lots of shopping.haha.I cant wait for the next shopping trip with ah mui!hee=)
alright,shall unpack my newly-bought stuffs..yippee..goodbye..
posted @ 12:35 AM
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Alright,feeling seriously bored at home so my itchy fingers started moving when i saw my curler.I decided to practice curling my hair and ta dah...think i look quite nice with curls..should i curl next year??hmm..btw im going shopping with my daddy tml!!yoohoo..i wanna buy heels and bag!!!!
posted @ 9:28 PM
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Today is shitty boring!Sigh.Went to PS with dear for some waffle treats at Gelare.It was my treat!hehe but dear seems to love the oreo chessecake more than the waffles cos he said its too sweet for him.Then we walked around for awhile and headed back to his house.Today i just dont know why im feeling so moody,i just feel like snapping at anyone.in the end,dear was the one whom suffered.hai yo,why am i like that????I really must change my f*cking attidude.Yesterday i gave mum a cold shoulder cos i was really hurted by what she had maligned me the previous night.wtf!!!even if it's true,she was the one who caused me to be way i am now.Sigh she even cried to my bf.I know i should understand her plight but im just like the meat in between two sandwiches.DILEMMA!Life seems so f*ck up,can anyone spice up my life????!!Really not in mood for any upcoming christmas or whatever ..decided to work on eve to numb myself so as to tell myself that x'mas isnt a big deal.I used to regard x'mas as a very important occasion for me bcos im born into a Roman catholic family and we celebrated every year without fear but now............shall not mention it further,my shattered heart has yet to recover.. sign,feel like watching Polar express now...to remind me to hear the bells ring again...:(
posted @ 7:25 PM
Oh man,my gum has been hurting since morning and it has yet been healed.i wonder what's wrong.
Today i went out with mummy to Changi Village cos she had the crave for beef kwey tiao.Again,i ate my favourite sliced fish soup but i could not managed to finish it cos of my painful gum.:( After dinner,we walked around and mummy bought me a polka dots spag..happy happy!hehe.She still wants to buy more for me as my x'mas pressie.Oh yes talking about x'mas,i now then realised that its coming.Time really flies!And im not really looking forward to it as much as i do in the past.I guess i had all grown up,any festival seems like any other ordinary day to me.Besides,this year im not spending it with my relatives or rather this year onwards.It's really sad that things turn out this way.But im looking forward to spending x'mas with him..hehe
I did not meet him today and im already missing him hell lots!He must be enjoying his buys..hehe happy for him.He got such loving mother who dotes on him so much!Well my mum dotes on me too la(say as though my mum no good like that,haha),it's just that she got no money if not im sure she will buy me lots of things.Dear dear if u r reading this,i wanna let u know i misses u real bad and i misses u scratching my back for me..:(
ok sleeping time now.im learning to sleep early cos sleeping can really revitalize oneself.By the way im pimple-free now!!!yoohoo!hehe see..really must sleep..k la go le..bye!
posted @ 10:34 PM
Fed up, frustrated and sick!That's what im exactly feeling now.Or maybe im just too tired.I just could not stand my mum.I told her umpteen times not to bring any chocalates or pastries home cos i dont wish to be tempted by these unhealthy food.I know it's all in your mind and your own willpower to control this temptation but when someone place the thing you love just right infront of u almost everyday,your resistance to it will soon get weaker and weaker.We are all human beings,i mean who dont give in to temptation,even priest do!So the only way to avoid it is by not looking at it but mummy dont get it.Sigh,mum i know you love me but you love in a wrong way.Do u wish me to grow as big as a sumo wrestler then u will stop.I tell you all how frequently she brings,monday brownie,wednesday tau sar pia and today CHOCALATES!:(
A few days ago,i also had a small tiff with my mum.She is the most selfish person.When i told her my dad wants to bring me out for a x'mas shopping,she actually forbidded me to go.Even the relatives from my dad's side,im not suppose to have any relationship with them anymore.The reasons are she wants me to hate my dad just like she do and she blames all my relatives for the cause of the separation.Mummy,6 months of cold war with daddy was the most miserable period in my life,why must you let me bear all this suffering again.I know my dad did her wrong but the thing is between her and him so why must she drag me in and make me feel so pressurised.I love u mum but i love daddy as well,please dont seperate us again.Crying in the lonely night all by myself is one thing i hate most....
Today was the last paper.Jam at the expressway ot of the sudden and i was late for 15minutes.Nadia was worst,30mins,dont cry gal,everything is over!Sigh,im bound to fail today's paper.After exam,i went straight to ah mui's house.As usual,we updated on each other life(s).Always feel so comfortable after telling her all my woes.She's the only one who understand me most.We also browsed through our neoprints that we took over the past few years.Laughing at each other silly poses and weird hairdos and missing the times when the 2 of us will meet up every friday to town.Those days were the perfect moments.Memories get richer and richer over time.Then ah cheong fetched us to hougang mall to meet mr wu.Haha,today is meeting teachers day.Missed ah cheong a lot!Mr wu brought the both of us and syaza to eat Siam kitchen.We ate buffet but you know how it was served,16 different dishes just came in a row.We were all stunned and trying really hard to finish it.Mui and i felt bloated after it but it was quite worth it la.Mr wu is a nice man,he still looks as suave as ever..haha.
Everything in my house are faulting,first is the tap,then the vaccum cleaner and now lights..what's next?Mum said she gonna buy a broom,broom???omg,i never felt so poor in my life before.cheer up Josephine,life will turn for the better, i believed.I think in a house,a man is very important bcos when it comes to fixing of things,they come in handy.haha and luckily dear helped me.Thank you!Misses him now..he seems so busy recently.Guess i must find my own activities soon and it is to WORK!!!Next week im gonna work back for sony,i need cash!!!Good night for now!
posted @ 8:36 PM
haha im blogging for the second time today becos he did something that touched me and even made me smile till now.
Actually i was late for the test because he overslept but i did not blame him cos it's supposed to be his rest day after studying for his test yet i requested him to send me to school early in the morning.He must be really worn out thats why he overslept.I should have gone to school myself.hmm lazy lazy gal.Im sorry too!When he knew i couldnt complete my test in time, he was so apologetic about it and kept apologising numerous times.I dont think many guys in this planet will apologise this much bcos many of them are simply too egoistic and i despised such people!Thanks God he is not those kind.:)
When i said i had not taken my lunch, he insisted on buying for me and asked me what i wish to eat.I jokingly said that i missed the fish bee hoon at Changi Village and he really went all the way there to buy it for me and brought it to my home.Tell me how can i don't love this silly boy of mine?Though he had bought me many expensive things before, this 3 dollars fish bee hoon is the best gift i had ever received from him bcos the trouble he took and his thoughtfulness is something money cant buy.
Thank you my 99.9999...% perfect boyfriend!=)
posted @ 3:02 PM
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EgRRRReee!!*angry*Please return back my radiance!!!
Today is such a rotten day!I was late for my test causing my dearest classmates to worry for me and i got no time to complete the MCQs.Anyway its alright la cos i dont intend to get an A.Finally im left with 2 papers to go.Well,accounting was as usual,sucks!marketing,i lost 14marks,also sucks!Sigh.Going to poly makes me feel so inferior,it seems like i always ranked last in class,I just cant seems to catch up.
Just now on the way home,the stupid damm bus got some problem,it keep stopping in the middle of the road.Nearly freaked me out!Thanks God im safe back home to be able to blog right now.
I knew whats the remedy for the zits on my face already,it's to get ENOUGH SLEEP!!!I was wondering why my pimples cant stop popping out despite my period was over and i followed the correct routine of washing my face.Then i realised its bcos i had been sleeping late for these past few weeks.Last night was worst,i never catch a wink at all,i actually burnt the midnight oil till the time for me to go school.Now,my face is super shag.two dark circles are damm bloody obvious now.No matter how much concealer i used also made no difference.I know now why they call it beauty sleep.Besides deteoriating my appearance,it affects my health too.Im feeling so weak and warm now.Guess its really time for me to replenish some sleep before i study for tomorrow's paper.Good night!Bon nuit!
posted @ 11:18 AM
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See the cupboard at the back?Its my motivation corner but no use de..haha
Right now its 15minutes past 3 and i have yet to study.Oh dear...PLEASE GOD!!!GIVE ME SOME MOVTIVATION PLS!!!...Okay if 3 i never start studying,im going to pop out more pimples.
Well well well, though im so unmotivated but i still did my revision la.Especially ACCOUNTS.wtf!Shall not mention this module again,make me goes really mad.I really wonder how those accountants can stand their jobs,everyday they are faced with figures,debits and credits,the piles of paperworks never seems to end..really can go bonkers la!I promise next year i will choose a course that does not require any accounting..Eek!I really cant wait for this to be over.I wanna work and go for my retail therapy.I got lots of things to get!!!
Hehe..had been meeting him quite a lot recently or should i say almost everyday.well,its not doing us good.Its too distracting!Friday,he came to my house to study together but nothing seems to get into our brain.Instead i did for him a mini facial.haha.it's so fun!Exfoliating,yogurt mask,removing whiteheads..wooo sounds so shiok huh..haa.Then yesterday was worst.I kept pursuading him to go cp to study but i ended up shopping.muhaha.I finally bought a foundation and strawberry yogurt mask.The foundation is so expensive,50!arghh..xin tong!Then after that we went to his house to study and had dinner with his family.After the hearty meal,we walked with Qq and Panda round punggol and we past by our school..making us really reminise the old days..so happy!Anyway, i feel so great to have dear around..alright i must du shu le!ah jose jia you wor,dear also must jia you!!!everyone jia you jia you jia you...
posted @ 2:41 PM
Damm,today i did not touch any of my books cos the whole afternoon i was sleeping like a log.Just changed my braces and its ultimately painful!I had a hard time eating my dinner.Well,school today wasnt that boring afterall bcos Ting and i were chatting all the way in class.I really enjoyed talking to her,we always burst out into loud laughter.Having her in school lighten up my poly days!=)
Felt that my hair was extremely long so i decided to call my "fairy godfather" for help.Haha.And of cos my wish was granted immediately.He came to find me after school and brought me to Eugene's house for a haircut.His mum cut for me.I really have lots of splitends that it's impossible to remove everything.Guess its time for me to give my hair some treatment.hehe.Dear and Eugene's mum kept conversing in cantonese and i had no idea what are they talking.But its so fun listening him speak,he sounds so ke ai.Actually i quite like cantonese, i used to learn by buying the language book and tape but..im always ban tu er fei thats why i learnt nothing much.But definately i know one verse "ngoh oi lei..an an"
haha..
k le..i gonna sleep awhile and start my revision soon.ACCOUNTSS!!I HATE U!sigh..goodnight everybody..
ps.happy birthday mr.Gundu sami!haha hope u noe who u are..enjoy!=)
posted @ 12:33 AM
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Sigh,im so sad now,very very sad. My whole face is full of pimples.Yesterday it wasnt that bad but when i woke up this morning,i realised its even worst.I think these few days i had been sleeping late and not drinking enough of water.Arghhh!WTF!Can anyone understand my feelings?I guess only ah mui knows how i feel..sigh i miss u gal!I miss the days when i can see u everyday,i miss when i can whine and complain to u about anything,i miss when im sick and u came to my house to take care of me,i miss when we will go out every weekend,i really miss u BESTIE!!!Because of this i skipped lectures and he started nagging at me.I know he nags at me is for my own good but i just cant stand people nagging at me so i hang up his phone.Im extremely apologetic about it.I feel very bad after that.Really really sorry and i miss you too...=(
posted @ 7:35 PM
see la,say study then doin what???cik cik...
wah!!my dear so chio hor??my hao jie mei..hahahaha
these are dear's lao po(s)..DA lao po is ME!!!xiao lao po is his bike.haha
Finally a picture of the world's loving couple!blah!=)
Mid-sem tests are nearing and im still not prepared.Instead im indulging in a taiwan drama recently called tian wai fei xian.SUPER NICE!haha.Yeahh..love story again..i love romance.hehe..i miss my dar dar so much now.
Last weekend,i spent the whole of my time with him.On saturday,when i was craving for roti prata,he brought me to Jalan kayu to eat.We ordered kambeng soup!hehe didnt know dear like it too but not really nice.hehe but we still ate till damm full.Then we went to pasir ris park for a stroll.We played the swings there.Its so nice spending time with him.after that we went to meet my daddy for a talk.Finally,we are able to sit down together to have a heart to heart chat.:)Dear then brought me to seletar dam to slack with his friends.i think im really a pig,i cant stand staying late,i will doze off.Besides,its all about guy's stuffs.They kept talking about bikes and cars then back to bikes and cars again.so boring!haha.But i still enjoy going out with him.lalala...Yesterday we were supposed to study together but dear was too distracted by me because he cant take his eyes off me..hahaha..alright sure end here..i love my boyfriend lots lots lots..muacks!:p
posted @ 12:17 AM
It's me with the bday gal!=)
Her seafood pasta!!Look yummy right?haha
So pretty!!!
All of us!
The babes...hehe
Bday gal with the 2 boys!
My 2 bestest friends..feel so xin fu standing with them.
Dear and i..Yesterday he told me that im pretty.I feels so happy after hearing it..haha..
Lastly,its me with my mui mui...Happy 18th birthday CRYSTAL!We celebrated ah tal's birthday yesterday.It was supposed to be 30Nov but of coz on this special day her kang kang celebrated it for her so we celebrated for her yesterday.We went to have dinner at Breeks again!But hers was at harbour front.Food were sumptous as usual but the cake we bought for her was quite horrible.I felt like we are eating more whip cream than blueberries.Yucks!i hate whip cream,reminder:dont buy cakes from breadtalk.Crystal looked pretty yesterday.She had her hair curled which made her looked very sophisticated.Birthday girl always looks best!After dinner,we headed to Vivo for some window shopping.Bought yummy chocalates from Marks & Spencer using the "class" funds.haha.We didnt buy any presents for her but we gave her money to buy her favourite Crumple bag.Really hope she enjoy this day with us...once again,happy birthday crystal...=)
posted @ 4:36 PM
It was our 3rd month yesterday.How time flies!I bought a pair of teddybear keychains for him & myself.So sweet of me huh?haha.While he bought me 2 bars of belgian strawberry chocalates and sweets.For the whole night, i was complaining to him and comparing him to my friend's boyfriends.It's so funny!I wonder why some girls are just not contented with what they have.Actually i was whining about him not being romantic enough & he does not know how to give surprises.All girls love surprises don't they?Even if he were to do me an extremely ugly handwritten card, i will still be happy coz it's him that made it.However after i thought of all the things he had done for me, i came to a realisation that i should be contented with what i have.I rather have an unromantic boyfriend than a boyfriend who doesnt care a damm shit about you.No one is perfect,so is he and so am i.So, from now on i will not compare him to others coz he can only give me what others can't and that is his unconditional love.Being his girlfriend is the luckiest thing that happen to me this year.Guo an, I love you...只要和你一起就够一辈子我要做你的 女孩
Happy 3rd month!
posted @ 1:58 AM