Finally im back to work for Sony.Work was fine,the staffs were nice and approachable.But my feets were hurt because of the newly bought heels.
Initially,i was anticipating to knock off from work because i finally could meet him to his family's chalet.but...a call came and...hmmm..
Im trying hard to be understanding but i just cant feel his presence anymore.it seems like dissapointment always come after another.
so i went back myself,walking along the streets of orchard road and admiring the christmas lights all by myself.At that moment,i felt a sense of loneliness.I missed my dad and brother.So i decided to go to my uncle's x'mas party despite the strong disapproval from my mum.I really hate to lie to my mum and i really hate to be acting sneakily just to hide it from her.WHY??!!why must she refrain me from seeing my relatives.I feel really miserable.Being able to see my uncle and family just now made me really very happy.My mum only cares about protecting herself from being hurt and she doesnt think of me.
I need a shoulder to lie on but the one i really want to lie on is..i don't know...
i feel so dumb shedding tears just because of this.I dont want to depend on anyone now..the only person i want to love now is MYSELF...
ps.im sorry if my entries recently are all distraught,i dont wish to be down either...
posted @ 11:48 PM