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wo de zui ai!.jpg)
my jewellary case.jpg)
ta dah!!my hidden necklace..=)
TIRED!Extremely!Today did the finishing of econs project but i didnt really do much cos i got no idea how to do.Thanks God,the bright wan teng helped me out,xie xie ni!
After that i rushed straight home cos dear was at my house already.I can't wait to see him.Then when i reached,he told me to look for a gift and it ended up hidden in the refrigerator where i kept the box of chocolates.Unfortuanately,he saw it.But he is so sweet la!He bought me another precious moment jewellary box with a heart-pendant necklace in it.See my an an,getting the kick already,not a boring,unromantic fellow already.hahaha.But sadly,he doesnt seem to appreciate my gift cos he said food eat already then shit out,not memorable.But but..i thought guys like their gf to do such things?Initially i was quite upsat about it but never mind,the most i do other things the next time round.=(Then we started chatting on the bed again,i just love those little chats with him.We again recapped on our past few months and shared with each other on our likes and dislikes towards one another so that we can work towards our flaws and improve the relationship even further.
dear,merci!!!Je t'aime...
posted @ 11:55 PM
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Firstly,stuffed all the chocolates and decorative materials inside..jpg)
Secondly,the words of love....jpg)
lastly,sealed it will the pretty wooden lid.
Oh gosh, i slept at 5a.m this morning because i was rushing thru my damm project but i still left with an article cos deserve me right for not attending the lectures!Other then projects, i helped dear to edit his slideshows as well and i did something sweet for him for our 5th month.I did some chocalates.Daddy was so evil,he claimed that my chocalates are inedible but after tasting one,he said not bad.I was relieved!I love doing something foody because i believe that the way to a man's heart is to fill his stomach.haha.Knowing that he doesnt likes super duppee sweet stuffs,i did dark chocalates mixed with biscuits.I can't wait to give him and i hope he likes it.
In the past, whenever i did something out of my own effort,i will require a return like i will asked myself if he/she deserved what i had done or what i did equals to what he/she had done for me.Thinking back,i felt selfish.You know what good deeds or something nice that you had did,you should not demand anything in return.
I also believe that God is actually quite fair to most people except those really pathetic people living on the other side of the universe.If you had gained something,you will definately lose something and vice versa.Life has been twisting here and there for me but he entered my world just before everything went berserk,is it coincidental or God just bestow him to me to go through the storm with me?I really wonder if he wasnt by my side all these while,what will i had become of?A mad girl?Or a girl that just cooped herself in the room and cried all day comtemplating sucide?
To sum it all up,im just thankful for the many months he had been with me for all this while and for being my bestest friend.
Happy 5th month!
posted @ 11:56 AM
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This is my creativity corner,guess how many pairs of earrings i have?.jpg)
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Checking out my new mirror..jpg)
See the pink lamp at the back,so pretty right?It's from dear..jpg)
Ok,this has nothing to do with anyting..jpg)
This is the red bag i had been eyeing on for months!.jpg)
This is the heels im talking about.nice nice?
Arghh im so stress now,i f*cking dont know how to do the econs article.Now i end up resorting to cam-whoring.muhaha.I realised my blog has been too wordy recently so i shall reward my avid readers with pretty pictures of my new home and some of my newly bought stuffs.It took me a week to consider my home to be a home.I'm such a spoilt child!Err,but i know the pictures are not entirely all on my home,you know you need a pretty model like me to accompany it so...ok i admit im a narcissist.haha=p
posted @ 12:19 PM
This is a drawing done by Phua An Qi,"artistic" isnt she?haha..bestie bestie,thank you!
Today is such a bagus day!muhaha.I guess the cheerful josephine is back.Today i was out shopping for my new year clothes.So now you know,if you want to make me happy,spend money on me!hahaha.
Today no marketing tutorial also.whoo,no more Monday blues.Daddy was so stingy,he gave me 26dollars to buy my clothes.What shit!26 can buy what?Sigh never mind la.I will remember who is sincere in buying me things and who is not.Then i met bay bay in town.Actually wanted to get a dress in forever21 but it is over my budget so i went to This fashion instead.Oh my God,I bought a dress for only 19.80.So cheap!I also bought a pair of white heels.ARghh..so chio.keke.I cant wait to wear and show dear how pretty i am in those newly bought stuffs.
Valentine's day is coming and i had thought of something already but it shall remain as secret for now.haha.Woo,3 more days and and it's our 5th month but Im not looking forward to it cos im looking forward to our 1 year instead.
Sigh,yesterday i was so pissed off with my parents.They went to unpack my stuffs.They even threw the present my ex student gave me.Imagine how sad i am.Even till now i nagged at them for touching my stuffs.Sometimes i wonder if daddy really loves me or he is just afraid that when he grow old there will be no one to support him so he finds all ways to win my heart.He always seems to push all the blame to mummy if something went wrong.And my poor mum complains about my dad all the time but still leaves food for him during the night.Is she stupid or she just love him too much?
Anyway,i shall not think too much.I cant wait for the chalet these weekends with my pretty Glitz.I pray that ah za can stay.She is such a poor thing!Parents are weirder than mine.Sigh.Oh ya,my econs project are still not touch,im dead meat.I will have to burn the midnight oil tonight.Ok good night for now!
I miss him..
posted @ 9:39 PM
As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Til the end of time forever
You’re the only love I’ll need
In my life you’re all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You’re the one that’s there for me
When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you
Chorus:Imagine me without you
I’d be lost and so confused
I wouldn’t last a day, I’d be afraid
Without you there to see me through
Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it’s just impossible
Because of you, it’s all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can’t imagine me without you
When you caught me I was falling
You’re love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard me calling
And you rush to set me free
When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you
Chorus
When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you oh
Chorus
I can’t imagine me without you
posted @ 8:52 PM
Everything have been fine and im getting used to the new enviroment.Yesterday missed BA test cos i never study finishing but took a mc already.So i went to meet Karen for dinner at Marriott Hotel then headed to her working place.She ordered for me Lychee Martini.It doesnt taste good except that lychee fruits.Then i went with her and her collegues to the lastest bar at Siloso beach as there was an event going on there.I saw Dawn Yang,the famous blogger.whao,she is so pretty!!!
Then took a cab back.On the way home,i was feeling nauseous already.I think it was the martini and vodka that i drank.i think im really not suitable to drink.I promise i wont touch any alcoholic drinks anymore.Luckily,i met a nice taxi driver uncle whom insisted on waiting for my parents to come down then he will leave.i should had taken down the taxi number plate and commented to the head for his good excellent after service.
In between my sleep,dear came over and kept me accompany.Having him by my side made me feel so secure.I think i had really fallen deeply in love with him.I know he still loves me as much as he used to but i somehow feel different.He said im requesting too much from him that i dont even realise now.Am i?Or is it because i dont used to love him that much and now when i finally love him,what he does it's not enough already.Thinking back of the time when we are still friends but having feelings for one another made my heart races all over again.The time he bought the same fruit juice as me though he was wary if carrot and orange taste nice when blended together,the time when he bought mac muffin for me at 4a.m, the time when he asked me when can he cook fried rice for me, the time he allowed me to lie on his shoulders...How i wish we could rewind back to the time and experience it all over again.Wo zhen de hao ai ni...
posted @ 3:25 PM
IM SO FAT!!!!
Today i looked into the mirror and i realised my face is so big now.I had gained weight already.I reflected on my eating habits for the past few months and it is super unhealthy.Ever since problems started surfacing,i turned to food for comfort and to forget about my troubles,i just kept eating.I can even skip meals just to eat chocalates.Oh my god!!!Why didnt anyone tell me that i have grown fatter?
I dont want to end up like a fat pig in primary 6.i dont want!i dont want!!!!
I must be slim,i must be!!!!
I am not giving excuses for myself already.It is time for me to return back to my healthy eating habits and regular exercise regime..
Sigh...
Yesterday saw ah tal and mk..hehe so glad to see them..thanks for dropping by..i miss u so much ah tal!!!
back to my books...bye..=(
posted @ 6:17 AM
Today i spoken to kor kor over the phone about my difficulties and troubles im facing.Weeped again till my eyes were swollen and puffy.He too was telling me how much he had suffered since he was born.Sigh,I miss kor kor very much.=`(
I wish to apologise to my project mates for not contributing much for these past few days.I am so lucky to have these bunch of understanding classmates.They knew i am facing a crisis now and they did the work all by themselves without trying to pile the heavy burden im having now.Thank you very much!I will get back to track soon.
Just returned to my chalet from dear's house.Supposed to study but we ended up talking and playing with each other until he caused me to fall.haha.Dear said he was happy to see me back to my screw loose character.Laughing insanely for no reason and teasing him.hehe.I guess except him(including my glitz too) can make me really happy even when im down.I love you my an an.Good luck for your test tomorrow.
Now my parents are still discussing on how to divide the house to make a room for me.I know what they did were all for me but my mind is in a whirl.They doesnt allow me to stay with aunty Esther.I do not know how.My mum threathen to break all relation with me and my dad uses a strict tone to restrict me from leaving this chalet.I don't know how.Tommorow im going to consult the counseller and i hope she might be a help to me..I gonna get going and have some rest.Night...
posted @ 11:02 PM
My internet access is back!Many things had happened for the past few days.It was the most painful period of my life.
On Friday, dear,ah tal and mk came to help me to pack my stuffs and see my house for the last time.Before that,ah mui came too.She did something really sweet for me.She did a memory book whereby she pasted all our old photos and wrote little messages inside,I read and cried while i slept for the last night there.
Soon,Saturday arrived.I woke up early and gathered all my stuffs together before dear's dad drove his lorry there.I sat at the back of the lorry looking at the once so bitter yet full of happy memories place.When reached,i finally saw my new home,it was...sigh i quickly went down and hid at the corner of the void deck and cried.Thanks to dear's dad,his friends,aunty Esther and bay bay for helping us out.Of course,the person i wish to specially thanks to is him,without him life for me will be totally worthless.
The first day at the new house was horrible,i cried throughout the day inpatiencely waiting for dear to come and bring me out.When he arrived,i immediately hugged him and told him to bring me back to Sengkang then to Punggol to find my friends.Ah tal came down and talk things round to me.Her warm embrace made me felt much better.Dear knew it was late so i slept at his house.Sleeping in his arms threw all my sorrows and pains away.I felt so safe.
But soon after the night,morning came,then night was soon to fall and my happiness meter starts to fall again,i hate to return back home but i had no choice.As he sent me home,tears dripped again.I just hope the journey home will be longer...
Today i was back to school.I tried to be happy but i just could not put up a smile.I cant focus on the tutorials too,my mind was elsewhere.After school,i decided not to return home though im extremely tired so i went to ah mui's house instead.Again,i poured out my problems to her and it always feels so comfortable after telling her.Worries were all gone when she is around.I finally got the appetite to eat.She even gave me money to eat.Though it is not much but her sincerity was really touching.Thank you my bestie!I will return you a million times of what you had did for me.
I had finally make up my mind.I decided to leave this place and stayed with aunty Esther.I believe staying there will make me happier,at least i have my own room,a house where i can really call home.I will settle my own living expenses by hook or by crook.I'm willing to bear all hardships.I cant live this place,it is too cramp and i dont feel like this is a home.
Thanks everyone who were there for me!!!
posted @ 10:38 PM
Sorry guys,i must had frightened you all.I didnt meant to show my emotional side,i tried very hard to hold back my tears but it just fell.Anyway thanks for all the console.
The thought of my parents fighting over money matters hurted me.Im emotionally and mentally stressed out.My dad said one thing but did another and with my mum constant "reminder" to beware of my dad made me confuse.I really do not know who to trust,both words are equally convincing.My dad said he is buying a cupboard for me but instead my mum is paying.My mum said he is just trying to win my heart.She had already spent a lot on the installation and fixture of the new house yet my dad kept scolding my mum.Seeing my mum cried almost everyday makes me cry too.Because of the new house,she is ill now.
I was supposed to meet Angel today but i was totally moodless.Lying on my bed,i thought of the luxury im enjoying,the air-con,the queen sized bed,the spacious room and a two storey flat.I imagined myself in my new home,cramping myself in a partition room of a 1 room flat made me cry.I used to think all those things are nothing but when i compared it,it made a great difference.If you all are able to enjoy these,cherish and treasure it,you might not know what will happen.Money really create wonders.I now know the importance of money.When it comes to money matters,kinship is no longer around,everyone run far away from you.I have been too spendthrift,spending money unnecessarily.It is really time to change.
I may be experiencing all these misfortune but it may not be so bad afterall cos God sent him to stay by my side.I really hope i will grow up fast so i can work,earned a lot of money and move away from my parents.I cant wait to spend the rest of my life with him,to be his wife,to give him 2 adorable kids,to grow old with him.But i will not put too much hope on this dream,this vision,cause i always remind myself that happy things will always come to an end.I will just cherish everyone around me.Thanks for singing that sweet song to me,it just made me smile...:)
posted @ 11:10 PM
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There are many problems revolving in my head but i tried to hide my agony by putting on a brave front.I smile, laugh and try to be the always happy Josephine.But sometimes i could no longer take it and i just burst out and break down.Many times,I asked myself what if im not born into this world,will i be happier?But the thought of you changed my opinion...
You were the one who give meaning to my life.
You brought me out of darkness and show me the bacon of light.
You create miracles
You taught me to face my problems bravely
You love me for who I am
You bring me happiness
You cried for me
You show me the meaning of love
I know i had said a number times of thank you but whatever it is,i still want to thank you for every single thing that you had done for me.
You are my all, my everything...
I love you!
posted @ 12:02 AM
I had so much to say today!
Yesterday,I went down to have coffee with my parents.I know it's weird that they can actually sat down together and enjoyed a cup of coffee,i guess they had became friends?I'm not sure.Then we chatted about certain stuffs and i ended up crying.Daddy told me to pour out whatever i have been keeping inside.I told him that they were selfish,causing the children to suffer along with them and i need a father to be with me as well.Also i said i cant catch up with my schoolwork and i wonder if i had enter the wrong course.As usual,his words never failed to console and comfort me.By the way for your information,my dad speaks like a politician,i swear!HAHA.
He said he will always be there for me no matter what and i should not always compare my results with my classmates.Everyone has different ability and i should be contented that at least i had pass despite the hectic problems im going through now.He even told me that if i really dislike my course,by all means just change,as long as i study something that i like,money doesnt matter.I felt so relief after hearing that.i guess daddy's words of wisdom are the only one that can solve every problem i have.
Actually,i had been troubled over the past few weeks over the course i choosed last sem.I'm still not wary about which course i really like.The course i choosed,general business has so much of mathetical modules especially accountings which you cant avoid even in year3.I worked so hard for the accounts paper but the end result was still a D,i tried to love this subject but it somehow doesnt like me.Sigh.I kept complaining to my mum how hateful accounts could be and i hate mugging for exams.Until yesterday,i thought of marketing(another course) but i had to see my result before i can determine if i want to choose it.Luckily today i went to approach my course manager and he said that there are still vacancies!!!He is so nice,he even gave me a month to think about it before making a decision.Soon after, it was marketing class and i can get to know my result.I was so nervous because i know that marketing is my last glimmer of hope.If i fail,i really dont know which business course suits me already.Then when i heard A,I jumped for joy.haha,i even hugged ah ting.She was so happy for me too.
Oh ya talking about wan ting.She is a really great friend of mine.She is smart,helpful,pretty and kind-hearted.She's like my PDA in school.I think i had relied on her too much.She is always by my side,giving me endless support.I wanna say thanks for being there!=)A month more and our class are gonna be separate,thinking about it,i feel really sad.My class are full of nice people.I heard about many backstabbing in poly but i had yet to experience it,i guess i must be one of those lucky ones.But who knows in the other 2 years?I think i will really miss wan ting a lot,Izyan too,Nadia,wanjun,jeremy and so on...Sigh..i hate separation..
Yesterday before i went to bed,i played Lin jun jie old album and i started thinking of the time when my mum was hospitalized and ah mui used to accompany me to visit her.Perhaps it's because i kept repeating his songs during that period so it reminds me of the time.And i started to miss my mui mui badly,my bestie.We are like super glued in the past but now somehow the glue isnt that sticky anymore.hmm,but no matter what she will always ranked the "NO.1 best friend" in my heart.
Today my 3 meals are all fruits because i felt so guilty gulping down 1 egg tart and half lao po bin which dear's mum bought for my mum and i.She is so nice right?She not only dote on me but also on my mum.haha.I love my future mother-in-law!!!hahaha.wahh so bhb.ai ya dont care,i will force dear to marry me even if he dont want.hehe,dear thanks for all your encouragement too,ai ni!I think i had gone mad already,ok i shall end here.byebye...
Josephine is a happy girl today!!!=)
posted @ 6:37 PM
Sunday is back and today will be my rest day.Oh,not rest day,it should be my project and tutorial day.I must finish everything by today!
Before i begin my schwork,I shall recall what i did for the past few days.I was feeling blue because of my parents matter but now im okay already.Thanks my friends for all your concerns.Friday,im supposed to meet za at NYP to teach her chinese but there was a sudden heavy down pour and he was ill so i went to meet him instead.Knowing that going out will made me happier,he decided to bring me out.So we waited for the rain to stop but soon after it stopped pouring heavily,we went out.I kept insisting on sitting his bike and while on the way,it started to rain heavily.Dear who dotes me a lot gave me his raincoat to wear while he never wore anything to shield himself from the rain.The whole journey he was shivering and in between the trips,he never failed to ask if i was okay.I am deeply touched by his actions.
Even yesterday he brought me to town to shop with his family.It was quite fun.His mother's actions are damm funny.Like small kid like that.Including the sister,wah really bring the house down.haha.I realised they love to eat as well,they can eat a lot!But that's good cos im a great eater as well.haha.So we settled our dinner at Crystal Jade.We also did some shopping and dear's mum bought me a spag at Forever21!I felt so bu hao yi si sia.hmm..Going out with them really made all my worries gone.I felt so happy,maybe because i had lost this feeling of family warmness long ago and now when i feel it,it somehow comforted the little girl in me.I still remembered daddy used to drive us around,mummy and daddy will held hands together while i will lie on kor kor's shoulders and sleep till we reached our destination....
He is really good to me.Even when he send me home,he will make sure i sleep soundly before he heads home.I really hope to be a good girlfriend to him too.I even sent him a sms about the promises i made.haha,hopefully i will keep my words.Okay,blogged too much.I wanna say thank you dear for brightening up my day.Wo ai ni...
posted @ 12:54 PM
Just previewed Kelly Clarkson because of you mtv video.It's not a new song but it is really meaningful.I cant help but cried while seeing the video.It reminds me of my parents...the many nightmares that happened a few years ago.
Splashing hot water,beating,shouting,threathening to jump off the building,chasing with a chopper,crying,raging...
Can daddy and mummy stop quarraling??
why they have to make me sad all over again when im happy right now.
i really admire children with complete family.
posted @ 11:59 PM
Nothing much happened these past few days except that heart-breaking Monday. All was fine till my emotions ruled over me and i nearly ended a relationship so genuine, so hard to find but fortunately i was knocked into some senses with all his words and the pearly tears which i will never ever forget.I am truely apologetic by mentioning these two ugly words,i promised whatever happens i will not bring up these words again. It is a big blow to the both of us.
School was pretty much boring but with great classmates around, i had nothing more to rant about. Got back some of my results,as expected all the b and c.Well, i just got to buck up for the main exam.Sigh.I had slacken too much already.But really i do not have any motivation to study, i just wish to get a diploma and start working. I am just simple-minded or should i say traditional. Get a decent job, marry, have children and thats all.Im sure in this society not many woman would plan like this for their future.Hmm.However,this is the life that i want and im sure i will be happy with it.
Okay, time is running low. Im lefted with 10 days to actually take away all the memories i had here,i mean my home. Sometimes, i was wondering if it was nice for my mum to strike a windfall and maybe things will be much better.Anyway i had been neglecting God lately,my faith is not with him anymore..im just lost...hopefully i will get touch with him soon...
Take care everyone!
posted @ 11:28 AM
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Yesterday was a relaxing,nice Saturday.Met up with Glitz,chilled out at Starbucks then followed by a movie.It has been so long since the 4 of us went out together.A date with them is always the one that make me look forward to .Maybe because i can show through my true-self...i can laugh as loud as the thunder,i can just shoot out whatever i loathe,i can tell them lame jokes yet they understand.hmm...Perhaps they are the only one(S) that understand me most.Rain or shine,they will always be the one i turn to first.
Angel,someone that are always there especially through my darkest period.A comfortable shoulder which i always like to lie on.Her laughter and insansity can make me laughs haywire.
Crystal,a demure looking girl but deep down she is more than what you can imagine,she is WILD!!!That's what i love about her.Lots of itsy bitsy tiny weeny secrets are said to her.Sharing things with her can make my adrenaline rush like a bullet train.
Syaza,though a friend whom i meet less often,she always try to make sure that whoever occurs some difficulties,she will be present despite her bad at words.Her sweet smile is enough to know that she is always there for you.
The mixture of them are just like 3 "need help hotlines" which i can call for different needs.=)
While on the way home,we met a pervert.He actually took pictures of us.It was so frightening.Really wish the police will nab him one day.Crazy babarian!!!Thanks God dear came to fetch me home.
Okay, no more outings,projects are waiting for me.
posted @ 11:19 AM
Today it's a beautiful Saturday cos waking up in dear's arms seems nothing more blessful than you could ever feel.We broke the plan.Supposed to meet only on next Monday but ended up still seeing each other.Laughs!
Well, but one day of not seeing each other helped me somehow.Now,i'm not really missing him that much already cos i'm somehow contented that i had saw him not long ago.Isn't that a good thing?I guess so.haha.As the going says,"absence made one heart fonder"..it is so true,i must believe in it!
By the way,i'm moving this 20th.As first,after knowing that we got the rented flat,im very very unhappy but i had thought it through already.There's no point crying these all over again.It is just the matter of time only.I just had to got use to the new environment.I'm sure im not the only person to be sad,mum should be the one feeling more miserable than i do.A family she built just tarnished in a hand of some mother fucking bitch.Moreover,she had one or rather two ungrateful stepsons who doesnt even care about her existence.Sigh,i sympathised my mother.Why don't she just heed my grandma's advice,if not she wouldnt had suffered all these and born such a fiery tempered and unrespectful daughter.Please girls, don't ever marry a divorcee man,once bitten twice shy.
My mum and i will rise,rise from our fall.I promise to buy back a flat from Sengkang!
posted @ 12:34 PM
I can't find any econs related articles!
I can't sleep!
I miss my glitz!(Friday please come quick!)
I am looking forward to Monday!
I am controlling...
LA LA LA..............
posted @ 12:42 AM
Today it's the start of the new year and it's also the 4th month that dear & I are together.
Yesterday i was supposed to be on the bed resting but late in the afternoon i felt slightly better so i decided to go to countdown at Esplanade.Initially, I thought of meeting him but he had plans with his friends already so i went ahead with my cousin and her friend.We dined at some restuarant outside of the mall so we can actually catched the fireworks while enjoying our food and drinks.Spanish buffet,that's what we had and the price was of course costly.Thanks cousin Karen for the new year treat.!We must take our x'mas neoprint soon.
We chatted merely all about guys.They were saying Asian man are the most unromantic and laziest lover.Haha.I was nodding my head with absoloute agreement.They also said that guys will change after the chasing and honeymoon period which means they wont be as sweet or as nice as before.This point,i dont agreed with them because he still treats me as nice and i even said i wish to marry him.haha.Immediately they laughed and said im still in my fairyland and my needs and wants now may not be the same in the future ,besides that i have not even step out into the working life yet.This remark may sounds familiar to me but it somehow worried me.Right now,i may just yearn for his accompany and his tender love but in the future,i may want a guy that can provide me with lots of money,a big car,a luxurious house and the list goes on.This is where reality sets in,practical as what many girls claimed themselves to be.However,i believed that this is a test to see how fragile a relationship can be.
Mum and i accidentally came acrossed kor kor and his ex-gf letters.We both were giggling at those words that my brother had actually wrote to his ex-gf.We cant imagine that he can be so mushy.But i saw the date,it was the very beginning of their courtship.1st month and so on..One sentence he wrote made me ponder real deeply,"i hope you will accompany me through the journey of my life".I assumed that this sentence means he hope to be together till eternity but what's the end?They still broke up despite a long 8 years of relationship.Phew!Hmm.But I still believe in fairytale,i still believe that there is a "happily ever after" and i really wish that it will falls on me.
Well,the fireworks yesterday were amazing but i somehow wasnt feeling that happy because he was not by my side.I wanted to spend the new year with him and our 4th month together but i cant do so cos it had already promised his friends.So i hope that the next day he will give all his day to me but now he is back with his friends.It is so infuriating when he said he got to leave after a call from his friends.I mean the previous night,we did not spent the time together already and now we had barely spent half of the day together.If he were to leave because of his family,i wouldnt mind but...sigh.Im not being possessive but i just hope that he can at least leave his 1 day to me because it's our anniversary today.Anyway,thanks dear for the pretty bouquet of blue roses.Or maybe,i should just be contented that he at least remembered today and even gave me an unexpected surprise.Sigh,whatever it is,i should just take things easy and look on a positive perspective then life will be much happier.
I think i had blogged too much today,i will end here.Dear,whatever it is,i just wanna say I love you and thanks again for loving me..happy 4th month!
posted @ 10:54 PM