I had so much to say today!
Yesterday,I went down to have coffee with my parents.I know it's weird that they can actually sat down together and enjoyed a cup of coffee,i guess they had became friends?I'm not sure.Then we chatted about certain stuffs and i ended up crying.Daddy told me to pour out whatever i have been keeping inside.I told him that they were selfish,causing the children to suffer along with them and i need a father to be with me as well.Also i said i cant catch up with my schoolwork and i wonder if i had enter the wrong course.As usual,his words never failed to console and comfort me.By the way for your information,my dad speaks like a politician,i swear!HAHA.
He said he will always be there for me no matter what and i should not always compare my results with my classmates.Everyone has different ability and i should be contented that at least i had pass despite the hectic problems im going through now.He even told me that if i really dislike my course,by all means just change,as long as i study something that i like,money doesnt matter.I felt so relief after hearing that.i guess daddy's words of wisdom are the only one that can solve every problem i have.
Actually,i had been troubled over the past few weeks over the course i choosed last sem.I'm still not wary about which course i really like.The course i choosed,general business has so much of mathetical modules especially accountings which you cant avoid even in year3.I worked so hard for the accounts paper but the end result was still a D,i tried to love this subject but it somehow doesnt like me.Sigh.I kept complaining to my mum how hateful accounts could be and i hate mugging for exams.Until yesterday,i thought of marketing(another course) but i had to see my result before i can determine if i want to choose it.Luckily today i went to approach my course manager and he said that there are still vacancies!!!He is so nice,he even gave me a month to think about it before making a decision.Soon after, it was marketing class and i can get to know my result.I was so nervous because i know that marketing is my last glimmer of hope.If i fail,i really dont know which business course suits me already.Then when i heard A,I jumped for joy.haha,i even hugged ah ting.She was so happy for me too.
Oh ya talking about wan ting.She is a really great friend of mine.She is smart,helpful,pretty and kind-hearted.She's like my PDA in school.I think i had relied on her too much.She is always by my side,giving me endless support.I wanna say thanks for being there!=)A month more and our class are gonna be separate,thinking about it,i feel really sad.My class are full of nice people.I heard about many backstabbing in poly but i had yet to experience it,i guess i must be one of those lucky ones.But who knows in the other 2 years?I think i will really miss wan ting a lot,Izyan too,Nadia,wanjun,jeremy and so on...Sigh..i hate separation..
Yesterday before i went to bed,i played Lin jun jie old album and i started thinking of the time when my mum was hospitalized and ah mui used to accompany me to visit her.Perhaps it's because i kept repeating his songs during that period so it reminds me of the time.And i started to miss my mui mui badly,my bestie.We are like super glued in the past but now somehow the glue isnt that sticky anymore.hmm,but no matter what she will always ranked the "NO.1 best friend" in my heart.
Today my 3 meals are all fruits because i felt so guilty gulping down 1 egg tart and half lao po bin which dear's mum bought for my mum and i.She is so nice right?She not only dote on me but also on my mum.haha.I love my future mother-in-law!!!hahaha.wahh so bhb.ai ya dont care,i will force dear to marry me even if he dont want.hehe,dear thanks for all your encouragement too,ai ni!I think i had gone mad already,ok i shall end here.byebye...
Josephine is a happy girl today!!!=)
posted @ 6:37 PM