My internet access is back!Many things had happened for the past few days.It was the most painful period of my life.
On Friday, dear,ah tal and mk came to help me to pack my stuffs and see my house for the last time.Before that,ah mui came too.She did something really sweet for me.She did a memory book whereby she pasted all our old photos and wrote little messages inside,I read and cried while i slept for the last night there.
Soon,Saturday arrived.I woke up early and gathered all my stuffs together before dear's dad drove his lorry there.I sat at the back of the lorry looking at the once so bitter yet full of happy memories place.When reached,i finally saw my new home,it was...sigh i quickly went down and hid at the corner of the void deck and cried.Thanks to dear's dad,his friends,aunty Esther and bay bay for helping us out.Of course,the person i wish to specially thanks to is him,without him life for me will be totally worthless.
The first day at the new house was horrible,i cried throughout the day inpatiencely waiting for dear to come and bring me out.When he arrived,i immediately hugged him and told him to bring me back to Sengkang then to Punggol to find my friends.Ah tal came down and talk things round to me.Her warm embrace made me felt much better.Dear knew it was late so i slept at his house.Sleeping in his arms threw all my sorrows and pains away.I felt so safe.
But soon after the night,morning came,then night was soon to fall and my happiness meter starts to fall again,i hate to return back home but i had no choice.As he sent me home,tears dripped again.I just hope the journey home will be longer...
Today i was back to school.I tried to be happy but i just could not put up a smile.I cant focus on the tutorials too,my mind was elsewhere.After school,i decided not to return home though im extremely tired so i went to ah mui's house instead.Again,i poured out my problems to her and it always feels so comfortable after telling her.Worries were all gone when she is around.I finally got the appetite to eat.She even gave me money to eat.Though it is not much but her sincerity was really touching.Thank you my bestie!I will return you a million times of what you had did for me.
I had finally make up my mind.I decided to leave this place and stayed with aunty Esther.I believe staying there will make me happier,at least i have my own room,a house where i can really call home.I will settle my own living expenses by hook or by crook.I'm willing to bear all hardships.I cant live this place,it is too cramp and i dont feel like this is a home.
Thanks everyone who were there for me!!!
posted @ 10:38 PM