Today it's the start of the new year and it's also the 4th month that dear & I are together.
Yesterday i was supposed to be on the bed resting but late in the afternoon i felt slightly better so i decided to go to countdown at Esplanade.Initially, I thought of meeting him but he had plans with his friends already so i went ahead with my cousin and her friend.We dined at some restuarant outside of the mall so we can actually catched the fireworks while enjoying our food and drinks.Spanish buffet,that's what we had and the price was of course costly.Thanks cousin Karen for the new year treat.!We must take our x'mas neoprint soon.
We chatted merely all about guys.They were saying Asian man are the most unromantic and laziest lover.Haha.I was nodding my head with absoloute agreement.They also said that guys will change after the chasing and honeymoon period which means they wont be as sweet or as nice as before.This point,i dont agreed with them because he still treats me as nice and i even said i wish to marry him.haha.Immediately they laughed and said im still in my fairyland and my needs and wants now may not be the same in the future ,besides that i have not even step out into the working life yet.This remark may sounds familiar to me but it somehow worried me.Right now,i may just yearn for his accompany and his tender love but in the future,i may want a guy that can provide me with lots of money,a big car,a luxurious house and the list goes on.This is where reality sets in,practical as what many girls claimed themselves to be.However,i believed that this is a test to see how fragile a relationship can be.
Mum and i accidentally came acrossed kor kor and his ex-gf letters.We both were giggling at those words that my brother had actually wrote to his ex-gf.We cant imagine that he can be so mushy.But i saw the date,it was the very beginning of their courtship.1st month and so on..One sentence he wrote made me ponder real deeply,"i hope you will accompany me through the journey of my life".I assumed that this sentence means he hope to be together till eternity but what's the end?They still broke up despite a long 8 years of relationship.Phew!Hmm.But I still believe in fairytale,i still believe that there is a "happily ever after" and i really wish that it will falls on me.
Well,the fireworks yesterday were amazing but i somehow wasnt feeling that happy because he was not by my side.I wanted to spend the new year with him and our 4th month together but i cant do so cos it had already promised his friends.So i hope that the next day he will give all his day to me but now he is back with his friends.It is so infuriating when he said he got to leave after a call from his friends.I mean the previous night,we did not spent the time together already and now we had barely spent half of the day together.If he were to leave because of his family,i wouldnt mind but...sigh.Im not being possessive but i just hope that he can at least leave his 1 day to me because it's our anniversary today.Anyway,thanks dear for the pretty bouquet of blue roses.Or maybe,i should just be contented that he at least remembered today and even gave me an unexpected surprise.Sigh,whatever it is,i should just take things easy and look on a positive perspective then life will be much happier.
I think i had blogged too much today,i will end here.Dear,whatever it is,i just wanna say I love you and thanks again for loving me..happy 4th month!
posted @ 10:54 PM